When you're alone with your thoughts...

As an attorney, you’re always trying to outthink the other attorney or prosecutor. So, yes, I did a lot of thinking in my head about “if I say this, will he say or do that?” Or I may ask myself questions. “Should I ask for a 10 minute recess?” “Should I object?” It would be crazy at times. Glad those days are over.

The worse part is defending someone that has admitted to me they were guilty. I defended a man that was accused of raping 2 women. He told me he was guilty, but didn’t want to go to jail. The man had money, so I asked him why he didn’t get a hooker. He told me that was no fun. It was fun seeing the women being scared because he held a knife to their throats. On the second day of trial, I asked the judge to be excused as his attorney. He asked for what reason. I asked to see him in his chambers, which he allowed.

After I spoke to the judge and told him that knowing my client’s position and the crimes he committed, it was just too much for me to give him a proper defense. The judge excused me.

I had to ask myself, “Did I do the right thing?” That was because the suspect would have to get a new attorney and prepare for court. The court trial had to be delayed 6 weeks. That’s not good when judges have their docket all lined up and you intervene and screw up the docket.
 
As an attorney, you’re always trying to outthink the other attorney or prosecutor. So, yes, I did a lot of thinking in my head about “if I say this, will he say or do that?” Or I may ask myself questions. “Should I ask for a 10 minute recess?” “Should I object?” It would be crazy at times. Glad those days are over.

The worse part is defending someone that has admitted to me they were guilty. I defended a man that was accused of raping 2 women. He told me he was guilty, but didn’t want to go to jail. The man had money, so I asked him why he didn’t get a hooker. He told me that was no fun. It was fun seeing the women being scared because he held a knife to their throats. On the second day of trial, I asked the judge to be excused as his attorney. He asked for what reason. I asked to see him in his chambers, which he allowed.

After I spoke to the judge and told him that knowing my client’s position and the crimes he committed, it was just too much for me to give him a proper defense. The judge excused me.

I had to ask myself, “Did I do the right thing?” That was because the suspect would have to get a new attorney and prepare for court. The court trial had to be delayed 6 weeks. That’s not good when judges have their docket all lined up and you intervene and screw up the docket.
I thought that was the ethical thing to do.
 
When I talk to myself do I make faces?
Probably yes. Like others here I often talk to my dogs. Sometimes they listen, sometimes they shake their tail, sometimes they laugh at me. Sometimes I take my thoughts too seriously. I have to remind myself that thoughts are like clouds in the sky. They block a big portion of the sun but the sun is always shining. I can handle my thoughts when I think of them like clouds.
 

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