What’s the hardest thing you have done?

Mr. Ed

Be what you is not what you what you ain’t
Location
Central NY
For me the most thing I have done in life was emptying myself of all preformed notions of life and trusting in myself to live each moment as it comes to me. Sometimes I lose patience or get upset over trivial nonsense I put myself in a context from people from whom I feel wronged until I realize my error and recenter myself.

Overcoming mental illness was not easy, but highly productive.
 

I have had a few very hard things to deal with,but the hardest thing was my Older brothers and his wife's hatred of me and my sister. Years ago at my last attempt to change the way things were between us was when I heard his wife was ill. I called everyday to speak to her and tried to heal the hate they both had for us. It didn't work and until he passed away a few years ago his hatred for us remaind.
 
Hmm, so many hard times in my life so many hard things I had to do. The hardest, looking back, leaving, just picking up my disabled 2 year old son, one suitcase, and leaving my first husband. With only a high school education, no job, no prospects, no money, and a long hard road ahead.

I begged my mother to let me/us live with her for a short while. She agreed because I “had the baby”. 😂 got a job at a company within walking distance of her apartment making copies on an old ink machine. You put ink in a roller, and hand cranked the paper through. Second shift.

Got a one bedroom run down apartment, food stamps which you paid for in those day, welfare for medical coverage, took my son to a sleep over babysitter, and, finally, a 200 dollar car, and a divorce. Never looked back-till now. 🤣
 
Caring for my parents while knowing they disinherited me . It was brutal.
Deleted. The worst is too horrible to write about.
Today I made an appointment for counselling. Something I have needed for quite some time now.
I have a huge chip on my shoulder, am snapping at others and getting emotional far too often. I’m SUPER intense and it’s not getting better. I’d even consider medication. There are traumas I haven’t dealt with which I really need to; they’re eating me alive: The way the world has suddenly changed forever doesn’t help much either.
 
Today I made an appointment for counselling. Something I have needed for quite some time now.
I have a huge chip on my shoulder, am snapping at others and getting emotional far too often. I’m SUPER intense and it’s not getting better. I’d even consider medication. There are traumas I haven’t dealt with which I really need to; they’re eating me alive: The way the world has suddenly changed forever doesn’t help much either.

You possess a delicate heart. You're in my prayers.
 

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