Reflections of My Life

Yesterday, Sonny was supposed to bring me water and take me grocery shopping. I hate going on the week-end but he has been babysitting his two great grandchildren while his daughter is in a training program for a new at home job (on the computer). She usually babysits the kids while their parents are at work. Yesterday morning he called me in a panic because he thought something was wrong with his dog, Spud. He did not dare leave him all day. So maybe today he will be able to come here.

I want to go to my doctor for a check up but I am afraid to go. I figure I will need to get blood work and maybe x-rays so that would mean going into one of the hospitals and I have been avoiding medical places for now. I can go for the tests to my local hospital which might be safer, less people and low risk in my county. But the doctor's office is in the next county and there is a higher risk there. I wish I could change doctors and go to one right here but the reputation of the one I go to is high and not so much for the local ones. This is the same problem I have with going back for more dental work. I keep trying to wait this thing out.
Same here on the waiting this thing out. I need new glasses badly but I'm trying to wait it out too.
 

Yesterday, I went to Walmart, which surprisingly was not that crowded. Must be everyone spent all their money all ready. Then to Aldi's and Tops, but I did not go in Tops. Sonny went in for me since by that time I could not walk. I was like, "forget it. I don't need it." He insisted on going in and he even paid for the stuff he got there for me. I wanted unsweetened ice tea all ready made in a bottle. I usually make my own but thought having some on hand would be good so I would not have to use my water up making tea. Forgot buying some jugs of water at Walmart so got some of those there too. Aldi's did not have them or does not sell them. Usually Sonny brings my water from his house but due to this snow storm we had it was difficult for him. He had plowed out several of his neighbors and his own driveway is very long so he was busy. Plus his dog had been sick.

So today is basically a rest day for me. The day after I shop I always need to rest the next day. I will probably vacuum pack the hamburger and chicken I bought yesterday, but that is about all I have planned. Of course, doing Rabbit's cage. I do that every day unless something comes up. Which it did yesterday, and I did not clean it. So have to do it today. It is not such a messy job, especially since I changed his diet. He is doing great now and has been very happy. I just wish I had done it sooner.
 
So did I say it was a rest day for me?????? I just finished vacuum packing the chicken and hamburger I bought yesterday. I like doing it, just the standing that gets to me. I managed to squeeze my stool into that corner in front of the lazy susan and can sit. Much easier. I love this thing!
 

Sonny got a free turkey from his granddaughter-in-law. She works in a grocery store and they gave free ones to all their employees. Her turkey accidentally got left out and started to thaw and she already had one thawing for their Christmas dinner. So they gave it to Sonny. He is going to cook it at his house and then bring it here. It is hard to get him to believe that I really didn't want to do a dinner thing here but now I am. With the exception that he is cooking food at his house and bringing it here. So I am stuck with cleaning everything up. Well, it is only one day.

Since I am only eating meat and salad, he is also making stuffing and sweet potatoes for himself and Jeff. I told him (over and over) that I have to eat this way or I will die. So I hope he understands now. It is not that I am anti Christmas. I just am being careful of what I eat and I can't eat carbs due to a holiday. I did that on Thanksgiving and had a hard time getting back. Now I am pleased today I woke up with no pain. So that has to out weight the taste of high carbs and sweets. I am doing this for me. Both my son and Sonny have health conditions they do not care about correcting with their diets or for my son, smoking. So I had to let it go and not nag them any longer.

Rabbit has never liked being picked up. He used to watch my cat, Patches jump onto my lap in the morning when I had coffee. But he never wanted me to hold him. That was back in 2015-2016. The last couple of days, I have started picking him and holding him on my lap when sitting in the recliner. He might get used to it. He does not let his guard down (or give) yet. I think I am going to do this every day and see how it goes. He is friendly to visitors now when they come to see me. He will come out and let them pet him but not pick him up. I won't let anyone pick him up (except Sonny) because I am scared of him jumping from them and breaking a leg or something.
 
I was trying to follow the keto food plan but just not getting anywhere. I dug out my old Dr. Atkins book that was written in 1972 and read it once again. Now I have been following his plan as I have lost on it before and it was not difficult. It is not difficult now either. I joined a group on fb that is for Atkins 72 only and it helps. I can follow this through a Christmas meal tomorrow because I am not going to be tempted to eat any carbs, not even a teeny tiny taste. I see so many people who are on the keto diet and then have one or two cheat days. Well, if you do that.........you are starting at day one when you finish your cheat days. Dr. Atkins even mentioned that in his books.

So today is what I call my "Half Birthday" meaning I am now 68 and a half. When I was a teenager, that half was always important. Not so much now. lol But it is the date I have set for my goal date on a few things in my life.
 
I had a nice Christmas with Sonny and Jeff. But as I told Sonny, no more of these types of dinners. I don't know how to explain it or why I feel this way, but after it is all done and I am washing all those dishes and pans and silverware............I am saying to myself, "never again." And I mean it. Jeff was late as usual and then he ate and was out of here. I know he would rather than coming here, to pick up the food and take it home to eat it alone. I know this but because Sonny wanted to have a family dinner with me, Jeff ate with us. Sonny is used to that big family meal, everyone around the table laughing and talking. Well, Jeff barely says two words. And I did not want to even eat it. I slipped and ate the high carbs and felt bad while I did it. So I was a bit depressed. I was doing good before that. For me it is the one thing that makes me hate having a relationship........the food thing. It was the same with my husband.

So today, I just start over and say the same thing to myself that I say every time. I can do this and if I don't I will die. Now I am adding don't eat with anyone!

I signed up for the Misfits Market and will get my first box on Tuesday. I think it might be a good way to get fresh produce in the winter when I can't ride Jazzy to Tops. I was able to order some greens for Rabbit and that would be a big help. I will see how I like it.
 
Today I have been finding recipes to use for making easy meals with the IP. I love the 6 Sisters YouTube videos and today watched one on how to cook a frozen turkey in it. To do it, you must take the inner pot to the store with you to make sure the turkey you buy will fit in it. I am not a fan of turkey for some reason. But I can do that with a frozen roasting chicken. I would just want to get one that does not have the bag frozen inside, because you do have to dig it out of the frozen bird and that is not something I want to do.

My plan today is to cook some frozen chicken breasts in the IP and then cut them up for chicken salad. Keeping it in the refrigerator for easy no cook meal. Sometimes I just do not want to cook and do the clean up. So I am going to hard boil some eggs in the IP also for the same reason. I realize I eat the wrong things if I am hungry and have to cook. I like to cook. I don't understand myself. It is probably because standing in the kitchen in one place for more than a few minutes is so hard to do.

Another idea I have is to make a green bean cheese soup like my broccoli cheese soup. I don't have anything but the green beans in the freezer right now (in vegetables). That would last a few days too.

Just some ideas for today.
 
Happy New Year to everyone who reads this today! I was not on social media so much the last few days.

We had a bit of snow last night and the snow removal guy woke me up at 4:14 AM cleaning off the ramp. So I got up. Once I am awake I usually get up. I would rather get up early than sleep late any day. So I have spent my time drinking coffee and editing photos in my computer. It is just now getting light out.

Sonny and I had Chinese food for our New Year's Eve dinner and then watched Open Range (I have the DVD) because he had never seen it. We went to our favorite Chinese restaurant which is a buffet and filled containers with what we wanted from the buffet. You can order your take out ahead and it doesn't come from the buffet but I like the chance to pick a bunch of different things.....especially the crab meat casserole that is on the buffet only. Sonny can't eat seafood now (due to gout) so he had to pass it by and his beloved cold shrimp too.

Now I am happy, as I am every year, that the holidays are over and we can get back to real life. I enjoyed the holidays when my son was a child and growing up, but never since. I just make my way through it some way or other. January and February are usually our coldest and snowiest months of all and March is not much better. Now I will finally get to work on my storage area as I want to clean it out real good. Get rid of stuff I don't need or want. I lost some important papers and am hoping to find them in there somewhere or else I must have thrown them out by accident.
 

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