Reflections of My Life

@ kat,,Yes, a person's mind set is hard to change.

My husband has thoughts / ideas that must have hammered into him as youngster.

The only way I can help him change is to have him see things in different 'light'.
There are things that aren't worth fighting over,,just got to know the difference.
 

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I use the phrase all the time, "have a great day" or "have a wonderful day" but cannot actually think I have had a great or wonderful day myself in a very long time. Seems like this year I had plans for improving things in my life but have not been able to do so. So it doesn't seem like great or wonderful or even just nice applies to me. It is not that I am depressed or sad just that my plans have not happened yet and summer is almost over.

One thing I am disappointed in is that I thought all my dental work would be done and completed by this time. Nope and not through any fault of my own. The only place I found that I could get it done is almost forty miles away and the last appointment I had was cancelled by them. I have not rescheduled it. I had gotten myself prepared for it and then drove there with it on my mind and get there to be told they tried to call me and couldn't get a hold of me. Funny........they have sent me texts and emails for appointments before.

I call places and then leave a message and no return message (at least). Makes you feel like you are living in a make believe world. Like these places or people do not really exist. I absolutely hate making telephone calls so when I finally do it and can't talk to a real person it is frustrating.

Now it is the Fidilis Care supplement I have is giving me a hard time. I have called for an appointment at Office of the Aging and had to leave a message. Does anyone call me back? Not yet. I was counting on FC to pay for my dental work and new dentures, my foot doctor and to get my eyes checked and new glasses. If I do not take an aide for fifteen hours a week must be they won't pay for them. Maybe I should just accept that and then try to only have the aide for two hours a week till all that stuff is finished.

Thank you for reading (or listening) I had to get it straight in my mind this morning. It helped to write it here.
 
Aw,, Kat,, I know what you mean.
I think a lot of the time which ever office you call to set up an appointment,.
Gives you a date which is about month ahead of when you hope to see them.

Then they run your name thru the computer,, checking you insurance, etc.
Perhaps they even check your income records?
Rather than call ,,they set you aside,, which I think is bad for all involved.

Our little local hosptial has been great with my diverticulitis problem.
The nurse practitioner called me back yesterday morning to see how I was.
Told me I could eat whatever my stomach tolerated.

I think some of whatever was in the superitories is lingering in my body.
 

katlupe said:
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I use the phrase all the time, "have a great day" or "have a wonderful day" but cannot actually think I have had a great or wonderful day myself in a very long time. Seems like this year I had plans for improving things in my life but have not been able to do so. So it doesn't seem like great or wonderful or even just nice applies to me. It is not that I am depressed or sad just that my plans have not happened yet and summer is almost over.

One thing I am disappointed in is that I thought all my dental work would be done and completed by this time. Nope and not through any fault of my own. The only place I found that I could get it done is almost forty miles away and the last appointment I had was cancelled by them. I have not rescheduled it. I had gotten myself prepared for it and then drove there with it on my mind and get there to be told they tried to call me and couldn't get a hold of me. Funny........they have sent me texts and emails for appointments before.

I call places and then leave a message and no return message (at least). Makes you feel like you are living in a make believe world. Like these places or people do not really exist. I absolutely hate making telephone calls so when I finally do it and can't talk to a real person it is frustrating.

Now it is the Fidilis Care supplement I have is giving me a hard time. I have called for an appointment at Office of the Aging and had to leave a message. Does anyone call me back? Not yet. I was counting on FC to pay for my dental work and new dentures, my foot doctor and to get my eyes checked and new glasses. If I do not take an aide for fifteen hours a week must be they won't pay for them. Maybe I should just accept that and then try to only have the aide for two hours a week till all that stuff is finished.

Thank you for reading (or listening) I had to get it straight in my mind this morning. It helped to write it here.
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Thank you for airing your feelings this morning!!! ♥️ I am still on the farm but have become dependent on medical care recently. It is a nightmare. I wish it all ran smoother and quicker but it doesn't. I have adopted a plan to to stay alive no matter how they treat me. I am not an experiment to be toyed with, so I am fighting them for being so negligent. Does that make sense? It kind of gives me energy to even releave some of the symptoms I am having also.
 
Today, other than being banned by fakebook, I am having a good day. I find I really like sitting in that new chair I bought (I guess it is technically not new now but I always call it that) with the portable table in front of me. I put the computer on it and really feel so much more comfortable here. I think Rabbit misses me sitting at the table because he sleeps under it. Just lately, he started coming up to me to get pet when I was sitting there. Well, he will just have to get used to this change.

In a few minutes I am going to go wash dishes and then clean his cage. Today went by so fast. I don't know how it got away from me. I have been busy so maybe that is why. Computer stuff, house stuff, bunny stuff, etc.

Have a nice Saturday everyone!
 
Told this story before, but just in case ...
Many years ago I was in the securities transaction business. A woman unknown to me called from a unit far removed from my own with instructions on a multi million dollar transaction. When she didn't know the answer to one of my questions, I just said "when you know, call me back", and rather rudely hung up on her. Couple of years later I married her. (-8
 
ElCastor said:
Told this story before, but just in case ...
Many years ago I was in the securities transaction business. A woman unknown to me called from a unit far removed from my own with instructions on a multi million dollar transaction. When she didn't know the answer to one of my questions, I just said "when you know, call me back", and rather rudely hung up on her. Couple of years later I married her. (-8
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So did she call you back? How did you connect?
 
katlupe said:
Today, other than being banned by fakebook, I am having a good day. I find I really like sitting in that new chair I bought (I guess it is technically not new now but I always call it that) with the portable table in front of me. I put the computer on it and really feel so much more comfortable here. I think Rabbit misses me sitting at the table because he sleeps under it. Just lately, he started coming up to me to get pet when I was sitting there. Well, he will just have to get used to this change.

In a few minutes I am going to go wash dishes and then clean his cage. Today went by so fast. I don't know how it got away from me. I have been busy so maybe that is why. Computer stuff, house stuff, bunny stuff, etc.

Have a nice Saturday everyone!
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How in the world did you get banned by Facebook.🤔😏🤔😏.
 
katlupe said:
So did she call you back? How did you connect?
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She called me back. She had to, to get the job done. How did we connect? She became a routine client, and I got to know her quite well. Well enough to start dating. A few months later my boss called me in to inform me that she and her job were being transferred to my unit. Yikes! Not my idea -- or hers, but it made sense. So in she came. This new arrangement lasted awhile -- until the account that she took care of (a Northern state) decided to bring her function in-house. They offered her the job, but she turned them down. Meanwhile I knew of an opening, for which she was perfectly suited, and had a lot of perks, in a department 9 floors above. She took that job, I proposed, we got married -- and still are -- although about 25 years retired.
 
ElCastor said:
She called me back. She had to, to get the job done. How did we connect? She became a routine client, and I got to know her quite well. Well enough to start dating. A few months later my boss called me in to inform me that she and her job were being transferred to my unit. Yikes! Not my idea -- or hers, but it made sense. So in she came. This new arrangement lasted awhile -- until the account that she took care of (a Northern state) decided to bring her function in-house. They offered her the job, but she turned them down. Meanwhile I knew of an opening, for which she was perfectly suited, and had a lot of perks, in a department 9 floors above. She took that job, I proposed, we got married -- and still are -- although about 25 years retired.
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Good Job! :)
 
MickaC said:
How in the world did you get banned by Facebook.🤔😏🤔😏.
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Because I commented on my friend's picture of a wild rabbit that lives in her yard. I said "Head shot" because he was looking right into the camera (he didn't know it was there. It was at night on her video cam). They told me I was inciting violence toward animals. Of course, she knew I was talking about the camera shot but the word shot must be banned on fakebook and didn't know that (along with word fat).

I was able to remove my cover picture there and my profile picture. Not sure I am going to go back. Maybe it was just a few hours but it is more than that to me. Others post hunting videos and sex photos so I am offended by fakebook picking on me. It is clearly because their so called reviewers probably do not understand American English and what head shot meant.
 
katlupe said:
Because I commented on my friend's picture of a wild rabbit that lives in her yard. I said "Head shot" because he was looking right into the camera (he didn't know it was there. It was at night on her video cam). They told me I was inciting violence toward animals. Of course, she knew I was talking about the camera shot but the word shot must be banned on fakebook and didn't know that (along with word fat).

I was able to remove my cover picture there and my profile picture. Not sure I am going to go back. Maybe it was just a few hours but it is more than that to me. Others post hunting videos and sex photos so I am offended by fakebook picking on me. It is clearly because their so called reviewers probably do not understand American English and what head shot meant.
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OMG!!! How ridiculous is that?... I couldn't be bothered posting somewhere , where I have to pay attention to every little word I use in case it offends the Bots... as you say there's so much garbage allowed to pass on there from what I understand .. and they have the nerve to suspend a decent person who is talking about photography and Rabbits.. it beggars belief..

Incidentally Kat.. Facebook is owned by an American Company Meta Platforms..
 
hollydolly said:
OMG!!! How ridiculous is that?... I couldn't be bothered posting somewhere , where I have to pay attention to every little word I use in case it offends the Bots... as you say there's so much garbage allowed to pass on there from what I understand .. and they have the nerve to suspend a decent person who is talking about photography and Rabbits.. it beggars belief..

Incidentally Kat.. Facebook is owned by an American Company Meta Platforms..
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Everyone says I should not get offended by being banned but I am. Recently my keto group, though it is still on there has started a new site on Mighty Networks. So it is almost like a forum with no ads or censorship. I go there and to another keto forum which is kind of like this one. I belong to a rabbit forum also. So this is where I am spending my time for now. The hard thing about leaving fakebook is the history. My family and friends who are gone now show up in my memories there and I guess I am too sentimental about them to never see those memories again.

Yes, I remember when they changed to that name but it seems to me that zuckerburg is still in charge and there has been no difference in the way it operates. Just wanted to create something bigger. I have slowly over the years got rid of the social media (not the forums) platforms. Still on Linkedin but don't go there much.
 
katlupe said:
Because I commented on my friend's picture of a wild rabbit that lives in her yard. I said "Head shot" because he was looking right into the camera (he didn't know it was there. It was at night on her video cam). They told me I was inciting violence toward animals. Of course, she knew I was talking about the camera shot but the word shot must be banned on fakebook and didn't know that (along with word fat).

I was able to remove my cover picture there and my profile picture. Not sure I am going to go back. Maybe it was just a few hours but it is more than that to me. Others post hunting videos and sex photos so I am offended by fakebook picking on me. It is clearly because their so called reviewers probably do not understand American English and what head shot meant.
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That is totally ridiculous, Katlupe…..I don’t blame you for being offended and hurt. It deserves the name you’ve given it….fakebook.
 
I moved my computer to the portable table again this morning. I do not know why I even put it back on the regular table last night. I should just leave it here for good. For one thing, I have better light here and the ac hits me at just the right angle. So not too cold or hard blowing on me, but more than I get at the regular computer spot. This chair is just way more comfortable. After all, I spent a lot of money on it so I may as well use it more that I did.

Sunday morning, I like hearing the church bells ringing. There are many churches within walking distance of my home. But I don't go. I went on Easter to my neighbor's church with her and her husband. I was disappointed. For one thing I don't care for a video projection screen at the front of the church. I didn't feel anything warm in this big church. The Easter message was basically on the video not from the pastor. He appeared distant to me.

The church I used to go to was fifty miles from my home. My husband and I started going to it after we met the pastor, a woman, in his mother's hospital room. She was magical! The best sermons I ever heard. She was six feet tall and very feminine. Well, my husband had mental issues and we only went there about a year. I was sad but we could not afford the gas to go there and back every week.

I went to the Catholic Church one time here with friends. I was baptized Catholic and my whole life I wanted to go to that church. My parents worked and did not want to go to church on their day off. So I went to many different churches with friends when I was growing up. Never just one though. The time I went to the Catholic Church here as soon as the mass was over the priest welcomed me and then a woman who apparently worked for the church introduced herself. Then she commenced to telling me how much money I had to give and where I had to go for instructions................too much for me.

So for now, I read my Bible, I pray and I watch Pastor Joy, my old pastor on YouTube. She is much older now and has lost her husband and of course, she does not record their music, but she is still a powerful pastor.
 
Raining here this morning. I have always enjoyed a steady rain that lasts all day. When I was living at my house, my husband would be in a bad mood all day because it was raining. I would look outside and see how my raised beds would be lime green, the trees surrounding us would be a deep, deep green. How could anyone look at that and be in a bad mood? I never understood that. My plants would grow several more inches by the end of the day. It was amazing and awesome at the same time.

Living in an apartment downtown, I don't see that anymore. A scattering of trees. The lawn at the back of my building is not very nice due to people using it for their dogs' potty. Now I love dogs and all animals but since that is where they walk their dogs (and they have to pick up their dog poop) I won't walk there. The grass has turned into some kind of a weed and it looks horrible. I understand though. In the park they have signs for people to not let their dogs use the flower beds.

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My apartment building is owned by a huge company, corporation really that buys properties that are in distress. Then they get grants and tax breaks to rebuild or remodel and offer affordable housing to low income families, seniors and disabled. I look at the buildings they own on their site and some of them are so beautiful. Offering so many benefits to their tenants. Except for the one I live in. They do not even have an actual picture of our building on it. A picture of a lake in the fall when there is not a lake right here. It is downtown. I wish someone would take an interest in this building. They could make it really nice. Even the landscaping around the building has gotten out of control due to neglect. But we still don't even have a manager and our maintenance man has to work at more than a few other buildings they own. Now he is on light duty to an injury.

The first manager I knew that was here when I moved here (and she helped me get in here pretty quick) was fired due to going over budget. She was trying to fix it up and repair the stuff that need fixing. But got fired for her efforts. So I figure we have to make it as nice as we can ourselves. I feel like weeding those flower beds but don't know if I could do. At least when it is sunny. Right now getting a good soaking,,,,,,,,,the weeds will go crazy. If it stayed wet for a few days, I could pull up a little bit at a time.

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When I got up this morning I said "Today is THE Day!" After months of trying to reconnect my printer to my computer and even longer trying to get Libre Office installed on it.............I DID IT TODAY! I went back to all the ubuntu installations to see what was wrong. I have the newest version, Jellyfish, and I was determined to get it back on. I am lost without it. I had eBooks I was working on and when I got this new computer all that was lost. Well, not anymore!

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So today has been even more productive than I could have hoped for. I have also had an issue with my old PayPal account because it was tied to the joint credit union account I had with my husband. I opened a new one for myself when I moved here in 2018. The other PayPal account is still there and I don't know if he uses it or not. I haven't bothered to go into it. I hadn't used PayPal very much since I moved here. But I can use it when I shop on eBay.

The problem was that a couple of years ago I listed a book on eBay and it sold. I had changed my eBay account login as soon as I moved because I did not want my husband to claim it. I was the one who worked for all the feedback and was not going to lose it. So when the buyer of the book paid the money went into my new PayPal account. Good! When I printed out the eBay label to ship it, I didn't know it at the time, but it took the shipping money out of his credit union account because he had no money in the PayPal account. I didn't hear from him when that happened. Don't even know if he ever realized it because it was just a couple of dollars.
 
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katlupe said:
Because I commented on my friend's picture of a wild rabbit that lives in her yard. I said "Head shot" because he was looking right into the camera (he didn't know it was there. It was at night on her video cam). They told me I was inciting violence toward animals. Of course, she knew I was talking about the camera shot but the word shot must be banned on fakebook and didn't know that (along with word fat).

I was able to remove my cover picture there and my profile picture. Not sure I am going to go back. Maybe it was just a few hours but it is more than that to me. Others post hunting videos and sex photos so I am offended by fakebook picking on me. It is clearly because their so called reviewers probably do not understand American English and what head shot meant.
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Of all the stupid ideas, Fakebook has taken the cake! Idiots.
 
To be honest, fakebook is doing me a big favor by banning me from their site. It was 15 hours and as soon as I disputed it they upped it to 26 days. That was the deal breaker for me. When my time is up and I can go on my timeline I am removing all my content. These big sites make a lot of money off other people's content. I have a lot of friends there so will send the ones I want to stay in contact with my email address so they can contact me if they choose. Now I will work on my blog more often. I had been neglecting it. That is actually how I ended up with so many friends on fakebook and twitter to begin with.
 
This morning I made even more progress on fine tuning this computer. Another obstacle since last summer when I had to replace my old computer. The GIMP (GNU Image Manipulation Program) graphic program I use refused to let me open images from my external hard drive. So I had to load all my photos from my camera into the picture file on the computer and then I could edit them from there. Then I would remove them from that file and put them in my external hard drive. It was time consuming. I would try to open the pictures on GIMP and it would always say "permission denied"! Frustrating!

Today I went to the ubuntu forum again. I went there yesterday and that was how I discovered what I needed to do yesterday. Once again, I learned something! How to fix it and change the permissions. Such an easy fix and I spent a year trying to figure it out.

It is raining here now and looks like another all day rain.
 
katlupe said:
To be honest, fakebook is doing me a big favor by banning me from their site. It was 15 hours and as soon as I disputed it they upped it to 26 days. That was the deal breaker for me. When my time is up and I can go on my timeline I am removing all my content. These big sites make a lot of money off other people's content. I have a lot of friends there so will send the ones I want to stay in contact with my email address so they can contact me if they choose. Now I will work on my blog more often. I had been neglecting it. That is actually how I ended up with so many friends on fakebook and twitter to begin with.
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26 days for disputing it ?.... Oh I hate Fakebook even more... :mad:
 
I got my water delivery this morning. Now waiting for Sonny to take me shopping.

Just upset these people at the home care agency. I was approved for 15 hours a week. They had an aide on the phone for me to interview. When I told her I did not need that many hours and would only need about two per week she said she can't do that. I said fine. So they call me back and want to me to let her come here and just find stuff to do?????????? I said no way am I having a person I don't even know hang out with me for 15 hours a week in my small studio apartment. They have called me back several times. This is why I hate getting involved with these programs. I am done.

So even if I can't have Fidilis Care pay for my medical and dental and vision I will figure it out myself. Now you understand the reason I have Fidilis Care is because I have Medicaid. They pay for the stuff not Medicaid. Maybe I will just pay a house cleaner out of my budget to come here once a month and do what I need done. I do not need an aide. Shoot a nurse came here and saw how I am. Not a feeble old lady at all.
 
well clearly they're not paying attention to your set-up. 15 hours in that small space would be like having someone move in permanently.. not a chance .. and as you say, you're not feeble.. so a couple of hours a week would be plenty enough to get those jobs done that are a little more challenging for you..
 


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