What are you doing today 2023

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Just been out for a little walk ..glorious day. Sadly had to come back before I was ready cuz my back went into Spasm creating painful sciatica down my left leg... Still, managed to get a few pics..
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Nice rural scenes of tranquility. Sciatica can be so damn painful, I hope it vanishes.
Thanks George.. so do I... I have trouble with my lower back anyway.. so having the sciatica on top is no fun... got a heat pad on it as I speak. It's more annoying that it keeps me indoors rather than being out in the glorious sun that is today...
 
Prior to my walk, I took the opportunity to tidy up in the garden a little. Not that it's a mess , but I transferred some fence plant pots to other places..ringing the changes while the sun is beating down.. and a few things like that..

Noticed the Dehumidifier which I bought for the shed last summer hasn't been working properly for a few days. Thought it was frozen up, so I brought it in and defrosted it , and put it back in the shed, but there was high humidity the last couple of days and it's not really doing it's job.. so I've sat it out on the table in the sun, to see if that might thaw it out, but if it's just stopped working.. I'll need to buy a new one, and the price of them have risen by £25 since just last year, taking this little portable dehumidifier up to over £70..... I'm :oops::oops::oops::eek:
 
Renewal invite for the National Trust arrived in the post. Same price as last year, so at least something hasn't gone up.
Took a load of garden rubbish to the tip, paid for the last load of heating oil and bought a bag of smokeless fuel - up again in price.
My latest order of wine was delivered this afternoon. A selection of Portuguese reds and two bottles of Andressen LBV port.
That's us broke - again!
 
All the board members were sent a Grant Report to review. I'm not the kind of person who can just give it a cursory glance. I spent an hour making notes the other day. Today I'll try to learn/remember how to do PDF markups.

I hope to finish the grant report today (or tomorrow), so I can get back to trying to read/understand Schopenhauer for the book club.

No laundry today. The building's laundry room is run by an outside contractor. The payment system (pay by card or phone) keeps changing and messing up. If people can't pay, I guess they'll figure it out soon.

Yesterday I was supposed to have liver for supper. I forgot, even though it was right there in the fridge. I'd better eat it tonight.

Talk to my language partner this evening.

Whew! Then bed.
What kind of board are you on? Are you still working (for compensation) or is this a volunteer position?
 
Very frustrating sitting here looking at the sunshine, even with the windows open.. and knowing I can't go out again today.. and it's going to be drizzling of rain off and on for the next few days according to the forecast..
 
Breathing again...

Yesterday, Valentine's Day, was doubly difficult for me and daughter. I've lost my beloved Papa on the 14th, 49 years ago. It's easier to accept but the tears always come.

Then, you know, we casually mention our first things we'll do together. So hubby and I would have celebrated our 38th Valentine's Day together. However, it was our first apart. Sad! More tears, sorry!

Daughter and I just couldn't stay home, so we went shopping for groceries. We got a wee pack of chocolate covered cherries (dark and white) and found two set of PJs at half price, bargain.

Currently, working on poster/plaque for rules about tolerated people (🤣🤣🤣) visiting a home where cat's roost... I'll post the finished product later.

PS, so many more important dates will be first this year and then some will never be the same. That's why you didn't see me here, yesterday. Thanks!

EDIT: Here's poster I created. Enjoy the house rules, as dictated by my kitten👍
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@Supernatural you believe all this will pass after the first year? You know that is not true, you still mourn the loss of your beautiful boy and now you are learning to accept the loss of your husband. I have not lost a child, do not think I could deal with that, was widowed 12 years ago and I still feel it every day. I can only imagine how you and your daughter cope with these losses. We have no choice to accept it but it is front and center in our hearts and lives.

I have learned to work my way around grief, so many friends and family think I am fine, I am anything but fine. I have just learned to keep it to myself, others moved on, that is fine, but that does not change things for me. Having your daughter with you is good, I did much better when my son was still at home. I am happy that he is married and happy but when they moved out, I was swimming in grief once again. Just know I think of the you and your daughter, out there doing the best you can after so much heartache. You both are amazing!!
 
Exercise this morning. I'm doing shorter sessions this month. With the winter blahs, I don't feel I can handle more. While I exercise, I listen to science/astronomy podcasts in Spanish.

After lunch, I'll read some Schopenhauer. It is rough going. I'm only going to read up to a certain point (as suggested by the book club leader). I hope I'll have time to reread it before the meeting next week.

Hosting trivia game tonight.

Not much, I know. But everyday tasks like brushing my teeth and cooking supper take a lot out of me. Leaving the house *really* takes a lot out of me. And I have to put my leg up periodically because of circulation problems.

So it seems that doing a whole lot of nothing is a necessity. I am managing to fill the time though, and figuring out how to manage my energy levels. So I'm less bored than I was.
 
Welp, the day was going well, till I just now tried to get ahold of United Parcel Sv. I have a return, prepaid, to go back to Jitterbug, and I cannot get the info online for a pickup, nor could I get help on phone, only got to "talk" to robot pc, so they hung up on me !!!! :mad:
 
@Supernatural you believe all this will pass after the first year? You know that is not true, you still mourn the loss of your beautiful boy and now you are learning to accept the loss of your husband. I have not lost a child, do not think I could deal with that, was widowed 12 years ago and I still feel it every day. I can only imagine how you and your daughter cope with these losses. We have no choice to accept it but it is front and center in our hearts and lives.

I have learned to work my way around grief, so many friends and family think I am fine, I am anything but fine. I have just learned to keep it to myself, others moved on, that is fine, but that does not change things for me. Having your daughter with you is good, I did much better when my son was still at home. I am happy that he is married and happy but when they moved out, I was swimming in grief once again. Just know I think of the you and your daughter, out there doing the best you can after so much heartache. You both are amazing!!
It's the seventh time that I'm grieving the loss of a beloved one. In order to survive, I've to reclaim myself and with experience of dealing with these on my own, I'll still miss them 50 years from now, but life goes on and after one year, you've to shake yourself bite back the tears and put one foot in front of the other, walking towards the future.

Sorry, I can't explain it any other way but I can't let it hurt me and ground me to a halt!
 
It's the seventh time that I'm grieving the loss of a beloved one. In order to survive, I've to reclaim myself and with experience of dealing with these on my own, I'll still miss them 50 years from now, but life goes on and after one year, you've to shake yourself bite back the tears and put one foot in front of the other, walking towards the future.

Sorry, I can't explain it any other way but I can't let it hurt me and ground me to a halt!
I am happy for you. Some of us can handle the loss of loved ones better than others. I happen to be one that does not. I have always lived with anxiety and depression. I think my mental state keeps me from moving forward. I have gone through treatment, therapy but it has not helped with the loss. It has made me realize that is now in my hands. I have learned that I now have to go on, I have to make the decisions for my future but I am still stuck in a bad place mentally. Does the weight of every decision weigh heavy? Are you more thoughtful about making decisions? Do you have someone other than your daughter to talk to about things?
 
I am happy for you. Some of us can handle the loss of loved ones better than others. I happen to be one that does not. I have always lived with anxiety and depression. I think my mental state keeps me from moving forward. I have gone through treatment, therapy but it has not helped with the loss. It has made me realize that is now in my hands. I have learned that I now have to go on, I have to make the decisions for my future but I am still stuck in a bad place mentally. Does the weight of every decision weigh heavy? Are you more thoughtful about making decisions? Do you have someone other than your daughter to talk to about things?
No worries dear @Blessed . I find myself talking to the ceiling more often these days. As a clairaudient, I sometimes get a sign of what to do next. I've all of yous here to talk to. Four lovely neighbours. A cousin and an old friend overseas. As well as one cousin who was a lawyer and justice of peace. A few work colleagues from hubby's work have been in touch. No more family members but I've learned to cope.

The way I do it, is going back to the days when hubby was away 6 months+ on contracts. I was alone with pets and munchkins, I'd a lot to take care of. Keeping busy passes the time quickly. I send love and kisses every night before going to bed, to my family circle in heaven.

Take your time dear, to breathe, to do Yoga or T'ai Chi to relax, sleep or nap as much as you can and if a decision is too difficult today, there's always tomorrow to deal with it. Suddenly, out of the blue, the answers will come to you. Blessed be!
 
Big hugs🤗 to all of you who had a hard day yesterday. We never get over it; we only get used to it and even that takes time.

@hollydolly Love your pix! Love those horses wearing their blankets.

Sir had a day off today but came in anyway. New Lady was there. First words out of her mouth weren't "Good morning." First words were how tired she was, how sick she was, how much pain she was in. This is her greeting every morning that she works. I responded with a cheery "Good morning, you probably should have stayed home today" and made no further response to her endless complaints the rest of the morning.

The weathernerds lied again. It's raining and probably will tomorrow, too. Day off tomorrow won't be spent in the garden, dammit.

Today is SS payday. Time to schedule bill pay. First thing I did at 4 am was move 10% to savings...I tithe to me:) and will again tomorrow when it's work payday. I'm "religious" about titheing:)

@Pepper 4.5 is such a cute age. They are so earnest and so curious.

@MickaC Thornbirds! I haven't seen that in years. Gonna look it up and watch it again. Loved that one.
 
I'm streaming the live coverage of the parade in Kansas City to celebrate the Super Bowl win. I worked along that route for years, and I can imagine how the entire downtown area of KC is shut down for this event. What a fun time for the Chiefs, and the entire KC population!!
 

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