Reflections of My Life

As you can imagine people in my building are upset today because almost everyone here lives on SNAP. I get them but I also get the UHC card which gives me a good amount of money to spend on my groceries. I also live frugally (in my opinion) so it really isn't a problem for me. If I didn't get either one I could still afford groceries. Just figure them into my budget. Right now my freezer is full of meat so I am good.

Today I plan on making more keto replacement shakes for ice cream. I make 4 at a time because that is how many ice cream containers I have. I miss it when I don't have it. Yesterday I only had one meal around noon. A chuck steak (not the best cut but it was cheap compared to my favorite ribeyes). I was not hungry all day or night after that. I don't plan on eating OMAD it was just an accident since the steak was kinda big for me. So will be fixing breakfast soon.

I think I told you that I subscribed to the Discovery + Hallmark bundle on Amazon Video. It is only $12.99 a month plus I subscribed to the no ad thing too which is $2.99. I needed something else to watch besides YT. Plus now I have more free time since it is only me here. So far I like it. I like the programs and I also have Prime Videos to watch as well. I don't plan to watch them nonstop but find I am staying up longer now.

Sonny is at home now and seems to be doing better. He will be having that procedure this coming month where they restart his heart. So hopefully after that he will be good. Thank you for all your prayers and good vibes for him while he was going through all this.
 

For some unknown reason, my son's SSD check was put in his account on the 29th, Wednesday! He normally gets it on the 3rd. I expected it on Monday. So I am able to get his bills paid tomorrow. Maybe if I feel like I can walk that far I will go to the post office to get our money orders for our rents.
 
I have been staying up later than I used to lately. So this morning I overslept, almost 8 AM when I woke this morning! I never sleep that late. Instead of feeling lively with that extra sleep I feel kind of groggy. It being a dark, gray day doesn't help either.

I have a list of things to do today.

I have started using the vibration plate again. Today will be my 3rd day this week. I am doing it 3 times a week for now for 3 minutes at #2 speed. So far my knees do not hurt from using it. This time I am doing it differently. Sitting down (as I am not confident enough yet to stand on it, though that is my goal, I think) but keep my legs extended out so the knees are not bent. I saw an old, old video of the vibration plate when it first came out and the instructor addressed the reason it may hurt your knees. He said to keep them straight and it made sense.

So now I am off to make the Keto Chow that I did not make yesterday as I planned.
 
This morning I will be paying bills and get that out of the way. Then doing what I do every day, some cleaning, some laundry and cooking.
It is funny how these little jobs seemed so trivial when I was young and now are a big deal to get done. I try to get almost everything done early in the day as that is when I have the most energy. The rest of the day I am on the computer.

Yesterday I worked on my photos. Making good morning and coffee time pictures. On fb I get the most responses when I use my own pictures. So I have started doing that more. When I lived at my house and wrote my blogs I had fb pages for each of them too. So took new pictures daily. Now I am using those pictures, as well as my recent ones from living here, to make my content there.

I am also working on making a calendar for 2026 of all my pets. It is fun working on it. I use my calendar every day. Keep track of almost everything I do. A week passes so quickly that all the days become a blur after a bit. So I know when something was done or not done. Still trying to get used to living alone without my bunny. Not easy to do. Sometimes I forget he is not here.
 
I think I have seen every video for 48 hours so now I am binge watching Dr. Phil. I must say I never watched much before due to his loud voice. I just don't like too loud. Now I am hooked on him though. He seems to give good advice. Though a lot of the shows are about marriage and families and I am not concerned about that. Though I do see things that was wrong in my marriages after watching some of his shows. I was married to men who would not go for marriage counseling or the one that did would not listen.

Some of the shows I saw today were just crazy! This one guy who is a grown man and has a girlfriend lives like an 18 month old baby. He goes to work and does that but the rest of the time he lives like a baby. Sleeps in a crib (he had it made for him as well as his baby clothes). Wears diapers and his girlfriend changes him. She feeds him and she says she is fed up with him and does not want him to be baby if she marries him! Are you kidding me???? How could she possibly want to marry him?
 
Yesterday Sonny and I had a good day. It was the first time I saw him since he had the pacemaker replaced. The last time was the day he was taken to the hospital on the day he buried Rabbit for me. That was a bittersweet day for me. We took Rabbit's body to Peaceful Forest, my house where my husband still lives. It was a gorgeous fall day. Larry, my husband could not help dig the hole because of his stroke. He has to walk with a cane and his right hand is basically useless right now. Sonny did it. He used a machine Larry has for digging holes, a Trench Digger is its name.

But being outside there in the yard and paddock was so refreshing to me. I would have walked into the woods but he had a lot of big bear tracks all over the place. That was what I was always afraid of when I lived there. Until one killed my cat, I was never sure they were there. The trees were all changing color and it was beautiful there. Not so much inside the house, though Larry thought he had improved it a lot. For him maybe, but not for me. I would definitely not want to live in that house again.

He talked to me about getting divorce and I told him it was fine with me. He said his lawyer wanted my insurance papers??? Why is my first question. Since I have Medicare & Medicaid, I told him I don't have papers just cards and I am not giving that to anyone. So he will talk to her and see what's up with that. Then there is the matter of the house and I don't want him to have to sell it. It is not worth much and any money I get would have to go to Medicaid.

He has met a woman on line (from China of all places!) and she wants to come here to take care of him (due to the stroke). Whether she is real or not I don't know or care. She can't get any money out of him since he doesn't have any. Plus the house might not be what she is expecting. Whatever it is his life.
 
Today I have a grocery order coming for my son, Jeff. Other than that, I don't have anything else planned. Just some cleaning in my apartment. I will get my groceries on Friday. My paper pile has grown since the last time I did it so that is a priority today.

I have chosen to wash my personal clothing by hand in the bathroom. I am using Dr. Bonner's fragrance free soap and I like it a lot. I will have to brave the laundry room this week end and do my towels and bedding down there. It has been so nice not having to smell those toxic detergents and fabric softners. I think I will wipe out the machine and dryer before putting my load in it. I do like the towels dried in the dryer because they come out soft.

I was looking through my photos of Rabbit and I can't get over how fast time passes! I see something I bought and it feels new to me now but I bought it over two years ago. Then I think of my parents and my other pets and it is just like it just happened and it has actually been years. It is true that our time here is fleeting. We are here then we are gone. I know that is why they say make every day count but how exactly do you do that?

I truly do not like to go to group activities or events. I really enjoy just being home in my apartment doing my thing. Sometimes that even includes cleaning and cooking. When I think back over my life, I always liked it when I was home alone. When I was married I still felt the same way. I guess that is why I never complained about husbands going out without me. I didn't care. Now with my last husband, Larry, I didn't want him going out without me. Not sure why but I always felt a closer bond with him. Even now if I call him we end up talking for an hour or more.

Sonny is going to plan on coming up to pick up the 2 mobility chairs on his trailer to get them in his workshop. Maybe this week or week-end. His grandson is going to help him. So happy about that. I just can't use one because I don't want to be stranded on it. I have not used mine since more than a year ago so I am used to not depending on it. So he will fix mine and sell it.
 
Paco Dennis said:
Yea, how DO we make every day count? It is different for everyone, but for me, to make everyday count I do something to help someone who needs it. :)
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To make every day count, I try to be productive every day, it helps me feel like I'm still an engaged member of the human race but, when not feeling up to par, I fail miserably. Kat is a master of productivity.
 
gruntlabor said:
To make every day count, I try to be productive every day, it helps me feel like I'm still an engaged member of the human race but, when not feeling up to par, I fail miserably. Kat is a master of productivity.
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Not always! Sad to say but I find myself missing those jobs I used to have that involved my bunny rabbit. He was a lot of work. But......have to move on past that and so have been trying to get things done that I never had the time to do before.
 
Sonny and his grandson were just here and took the two mobility chairs. I confess to shedding a couple of tears seeing my "Jazzy" on the back of his trailer as he pulled out of the driveway. I do miss it but I could not use it anymore and had nobody to call if I broke down away from here. Sonny cannot just drive here on a whim anymore.

The good thing about it...........my bathroom is HUGE now! At least for me it is.
 
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