Many years ago, I was attacked and strangled. Just before losing consciousness, my last thought was "This is it. I'm going to die right now. Who's going to love my daughters the way I love them?" They were six and eight years old at the time. I'm still here thanks to a bystander's intervention.
Now and then I envision the assigned executor going through my things and wonder what they will think and do with them.
If you're facing imminent death when you've got little kids, no doubt your last thoughts are of them. And for practically everyone it's going to be a panicked "What's going to happen to my kids?!"
I was spending the night at my girlfriend's place; my mom had the kids for the weekend. My daughter was only 2 and the boys were like 5 and 6. The girlfriend wakes me and says she heard something downstairs...somebody walking around. When I heard it, too, I grabbed my pistol real quick and ran down the hall.
Like an idiot, I stood at the top of the stairs, wide open and naked as a jaybird, looking down at this dude who's making his way up. I had the gun out in front of me, but I had no idea if he had one, too, or if he had other guys with him, and one of them already made it up there and was standing behind my dumb naked arse. Worse, my girlfriend had a night-light in that hallway. I was lit. The creeper was barely visible.
Now, after all that flashed through my head, my next thought was whether or not I could shoot this clown now, or if I had to wait for him to take one more step...but my last thought, right after thinking I could be dead in a second and before yelling "Get the f*** outa here!" so loud it rattled the windows, my
last thought was with my kids. I'd put myself in a stupid, vulnerable, realistically deadly position that could have left them without their Daddy.
Fortunately, the dude ran. In fact, I've never seen anyone move so fast; this was some Gold Metal running. But I kid you not, I practiced what I
should have done every night for like a solid month.
And I just realized, I didn't think of my girlfriend once during that whole event.
