Ruthanne, unfortunately, some people are quick to sense when someone has a poor self-image, and take advantage of it. I've experienced that in "romantic" relationships and work relationships. I applaud you for having the courage to stand up for yourself. Hold onto your worth! (Just woke up so I'm stumbling for the right words!)
Shalimar, I love the way you described a relationship.
I'd need a very understanding woman. Many years ago I started taking care of myself. I'm taking medications for high blood pressure. The timing was terrible. I'd just gotten married, and we were suddenly unable to make love. That inability led to the ultimate end of our marriage. I haven't been able to investigate the cause or remedy of the problem. I get terrible anxiety attacks when I contemplate anything complex. To make things worse, my last doctor visit showed my blood pressure to be sky-high. I'm already taking the maximum effective dose of my blood pressure medication. I should pursue the blood pressure issue soon.