Blue Xmas

Yes, to both, I think it is all of those things.

This forum, and all of you, are helping me to get through it.
💐..sorry to hear that Kaila...((hugs))...I'm having a pretty bad time myself, and today for some odd reason it hit me out of the blue, and I physically had to stop myself from bursting into tears in the store...twice..... ..I think that's the reason I ended up with all that clothing and shoes..
 
This was a bad holiday season for both of us and it is the first one I can remember in all the years that we were married that we were under the weather. Having covid and not seeing the grandkids really hit me hard.
I couldn't even make a decent Christmas dinner since we have no sense of taste or smell.
On the up side we are both feeling a bit better as well as my son who also tested positive.
 
This was the second Christmas since my husband passed away. At least this year, I got to spend it at my son and his family's house. But, after Christmas is over, I always tend to get a little depressed after Christmas. Have to face Jan & Feb, our two coldest months, is just miserable. And there's no place to go where you can hang out and perhaps have a conservation with someone because of this pandemic. I'll just try to keep busy until spring. Maybe things will be a bit better by then.
 
I think that Xmas poses idyllic standards and expectations that few of us can reach in actuality, and painfully holds up a mirror to what may be missing in our lives. Our life circumstances also often change over the years, often not for the better. It’s no wonder that mental health professionals are busiest at this time of year…
 


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