Let’s not.
@Judycat
Deep dark thoughts of killing another human being are nothing to joke about, although we all have thoughts like this. I attribute these thoughts to Satan, the big D, the guy who is the flip side of G O D. I chase the thoughts away with a, I suppose mantra, Get Thee Behind Me Satan.
I am not joking. Besides, there are too many deserving jerks.
Have I had these dark thoughts, yes. Did I impulsively ever act on them, kind of. First marriage, I was very young, he was beating the crap out of me, as usual. But now I had a baby, a disabled baby. And I was tired of being hit. Just plain tired of it.
It was 1964. We had a room divider book case separating the living room from the dining room. I got away from him and ran behind the divider which was full of books, yeah, like that was safe-not. In those days they were not attached to the wall.
He on one side, me on the other. He said something, can’t remember what. He was a deserving jerk, plus. I was younger in those days, stronger, had a baby to protect. Yup. I remember wanting to kill him, wanting him dead. Missed him by that much.
He said “Do you know you could have killed me?”. Did I mention he was stupid as well?
In retrospect, I realized, later, I could have gone to jail, no self defense for wives back then. What would have happened to my baby? Wives were chattel back then. He put the room divider against a wall after that.
So-Get thee behind me Satan.