For Those of You Who've Had Very Serious Depression!!

Ruthanne

Ruthanne

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I know it's been really really hard because I've experienced it too for oh so many years...more than I want to count but a very long time.

I only felt the negativity in life, and people I knew only added to it with nothing positive most of the time, I had so many negative experiences too I couldn't stop thinking of them, and all in all it led to a very negative feeling life and chemistry of my mind, too.

I have since been taking a good antidepressant and have been schooled on how balancing the mind with both negative and positive things really helps a person.

I try and keep on trying and sometimes I win and sometimes I don't but I keep on getting back to basics and look for the good in things in life.

All your thoughts and experiences are appreciated. If you never had depression this thread may not be for you, sorry.
 

With therapy and the right meds, I have been in a very good place now, for a decade or so.
Now and then, the past comes creeping back, but I push it out, and think more positive thoughts.
That may not work for others, but it works for me.

All the best to others who suffer from depression. Sometimes, we all need a helping hand.
 
Pinky said:
With therapy and the right meds, I have been in a very good place now, for a decade or so.
Now and then, the past comes creeping back, but I push it out, and think more positive thoughts.
That may not work for others, but it works for me.

All the best to others who suffer from depression. Sometimes, we all need a helping hand.
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I đź‘Ť agree
 
I have had depression since I was a school kid, (not good home life) through out my life. for one reason or another. I have often wondered what my ancestors got up to, I read somewhere that their sins would come back to haunt the living. I don't believe in it really, but it does come back to me when I'm having a 'dark' day. Thank goodness for modern medicine.
 
I'm not taking antidepressants. Probably should. Since I was an abused child, I don't know how much of my depression, glass half full, always worried, etc. is from trauma or my brain chemistry.

Not that I'm not grateful for things. My mind does tend to dwell on the negative and I too have too many bad memories. And I really have no true support.
 
I had a short spell of it the year I quit smoking and soon after something really bad happened in my life. The bad thing plus the lack of my usual coping method and the change in brain chemistry with the missing nicotine sent me into a very dark place. I was also living in England at the time with no friends or family around.

Time passed and everything got better, but that experience made me forever deeply sympathetic to those of you who have a chronic tendency toward depression. Sending hugs to all of you.
 
I went through severe depression 17 years ago. Many misinterpret depression as severe sadness. It also involves anxiousness and the unwillingness to perform everyday tasks.

I didn't want to get out of bed. I dreaded going into work because I also had anxiety. I lost a lot of weight and was always nervous. My depression was due to Body Dysmorphic Disorder so every time I passed a mirror I had panic attacks.

I went to a great therapist who took me back to my 9 year-old self. I had all those memories bottled up and just bawled when I recalled them. I have been on anti-depressants since then, but Cognitive Behavioral Therapy has really been the therapy that has seen me through this. I have spent days without the anti-depressants and have been fine. When we learn to truly know what makes us tick it can all be okay!
 
dseag2 said:
I went to a great therapist who took me back to my 9 year-old self. I had all those memories bottled up and just bawled when I recalled them. I have been on anti-depressants since then, but Cognitive Behavioral Therapy has really been the therapy that has seen me through this. I have spent days without the anti-depressants and have been fine. When we learn to truly know what makes us tick it can all be okay!
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Cognitive Behavior Therapy was what helped me most, too. I had anticipatory anxiety so bad that I would start to panic every time the phone would ring and if I had to call back to the states to see how things were going I would start to shake. Those little behavior tricks of logging and rating my fears really helped me start to regain a sense of control.
 
Ruthanne said:
I know it's been really really hard because I've experienced it too for oh so many years...more than I want to count but a very long time.

I only felt the negativity in life, and people I knew only added to it with nothing positive most of the time, I had so many negative experiences too I couldn't stop thinking of them, and all in all it led to a very negative feeling life and chemistry of my mind, too.

I have since been taking a good antidepressant and have been schooled on how balancing the mind with both negative and positive things really helps a person.

I try and keep on trying and sometimes I win and sometimes I don't but I keep on getting back to basics and look for the good in things in life.

All your thoughts and experiences are appreciated. If you never had depression this thread may not be for you, sorry.
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I suffer with depression also. Thank you for having the courage to share your experiences with us. I am sure that the two of us are not the only ones dealing with these issues.

I do counseling. I also do meditation, Hatha Yoga relaxation...and Lindt dark chocolate truffles :):):)
 
Remy said:
I'm not taking antidepressants. Probably should. Since I was an abused child, I don't know how much of my depression, glass half full, always worried, etc. is from trauma or my brain chemistry.

Not that I'm not grateful for things. My mind does tend to dwell on the negative and I too have too many bad memories. And I really have no true support.
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sorry about the problems. I also come from an abuse background. I do therapy. Definitely helped me to not only concentrate on the depression issues, but PTSD issues from the abuse.
 
Della said:
Cognitive Behavior Therapy was what helped me most, too. I had anticipatory anxiety so bad that I would start to panic every time the phone would ring and if I had to call back to the states to see how things were going I would start to shake. Those little behavior tricks of logging and rating my fears really helped me start to regain a sense of control.
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In the early days of my issues, I had panic attacks (I was a violent crime victim). The thing that arrested the panic attacks was work with breathing exercises from Hatha Yoga. And, you know, quite A LOT of hard work with them. The panic attacks did not surrender easily, but eventually they did surrender entirely.
 
About 15 years ago I experienced several very traumatic events and became severally depressed. I tried many things and talked to many people about what I should do until I decided to go to a Physician. Since then I have been stuck at 40 mg Anti-Depressant ( Citalopram ) and 1.75mg Benzodiazapine ( Clonazepam ). It is as far as I can tapper before I reach feeling withdrawl symptoms. It is the worse stuff I have ever taken and about 1/2 the population is on an Anti-Depressant. I think back then in 2007 the Medical and Pharma Industries needed a fix to the opioid crisis and the the AD's were over prescribed. I have developed chronic IBS because it messes with digestion. For about 2 years I switched to a Keto diet and use Medical Marijuana for the IBS symptoms. Somedays are better than others.
 
Paco Dennis said:
About 15 years ago I experienced several very traumatic events and became severally depressed. I tried many things and talked to many people about what I should do until I decided to go to a Physician. Since then I have been stuck at 40 mg Anti-Depressant ( Citalopram ) and 1.75mg Benzodiazapine ( Clonazepam ). It is as far as I can tapper before I reach feeling withdrawl symptoms. It is the worse stuff I have ever taken and about 1/2 the population is on an Anti-Depressant. I think back then in 2007 the Medical and Pharma Industries needed a fix to the opioid crisis and the the AD's were over prescribed. I have developed chronic IBS because it messes with digestion. For about 2 years I switched to a Keto diet and use Medical Marijuana for the IBS symptoms. Somedays are better than others.
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very sorry about the difficulties.

I was a violent crime victim. Long story. Kidnapped. Held. Escaped, but lunatic goons remained threatening presence in my life.


So, I have PTSD. Strongly recommend doing directed treatment for the PTSD in addition to whatever is going on with the depression.

PTSD goes to that amygdala - fight or flight lizard brain. Brain just gets wired wrong, jumps to trains of anxiety or depression.

And directed work on the triggers, etc. is different than therapy for depression.
 
Traumatic life events and chronic health issues have sent me down a road of depression and anxiety. My Primary Care Doc has help a lot with Meds. It’s interesting some one mentioned they can cause IBS. I get these horrendous flare ups also have not heard them connected to antidepressants.
 
Jan14 said:
Traumatic life events and chronic health issues have sent me down a road of depression and anxiety. My Primary Care Doc has help a lot with Meds. It’s interesting some one mentioned they can cause IBS. I get these horrendous flare ups also have not heard them connected to antidepressants.
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Most opiods mess with digestion.

Very common.

from the Mayo Clinic...

Mayo Clinic Minute: Opioids can cause gut problems

“We know that about 40 to 80 percent of people who receive opioids develop GI symptoms, and the most common GI symptom is constipation,” says Dr. Camilleri.​



https://newsnetwork.mayoclinic.org/...ow that about 40,it can be very uncomfortable.
 
Jan14 said:
Traumatic life events and chronic health issues have sent me down a road of depression and anxiety. My Primary Care Doc has help a lot with Meds. It’s interesting some one mentioned they can cause IBS. I get these horrendous flare ups also have not heard them connected to antidepressants.
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Hal2022 says :

"Why do antidepressants cause bowel problems?


The serotonin system may be involved, or perhaps a neuropathy linked to sensory fibers in the stomach, or it may involve disruption of autonomic muscle function that is crucial for normal digestive functioning."
 
Nathan said:
Actually @Ruthanne , I think this thread is exactly what those who have/are experiencing depression need. Some very relevant / heart rendering /informative posts here, thanks to all for sharing.
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I think those who have not experienced it might benefit from reading the posts as well:
Seeing the different ways it can manifest, the different strategies used to manage it just might help non-sufferers have some understanding of the issue. Most people know or have known someone who has experienced it whether they realize it or not. (Because as Robin Williams once said people don't pretend to be depressed, they pretend to be 'fine'.)
 

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