Ah, well because that is my name. It is probably the first time I've ever used my actual name. I've been in many forums and on many interest or hobby sites where I used something else.
The reason I used my real name was because I had visited the site many times before joining to get a grip on the sort it is. The thing that was most notable were the strict rules and how well chats seemed to conform to them. This is one of the 'safest' sites I've ever been on.
I must have become rather immune to bad behavior over the years because I've been banned twice here for reasons that I had completely missed in my 'usual' behavior. The experience with other forums over the years had changed me to be sharp, edgy, and defensive. I hadn't noticed the change in myself. Being here for just a short time has made me very aware of myself. And, using my real name reminds me of who I think of myself as. Strange I know. But, being on the net does change a person and I can testify to that. So, by using my real name I can return to being my real self. I can now see that using cryptic names may seem cute but, actually can reveal a very defensive perspective.
In a place where we talk about what we talk about, and do it honestly one cannot really be defensive at the sametime while valuing the site for the reasons we do. You have to take off the armored suit and put down your weapons to find yourself on this site. Here, we are all too old and too near the end to keep kidding ourselves and others about ourselves, I think.
