How do you choose what to express from the your memories and inner dialogue?

Paco Dennis

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I am having real problems with this these days. It might be information overload, but I hear in my head so many angles on almost any subject, that I can't choose what's real/appropriate to express. I am loosing motivation to move in any direction. A feeling of being lost is present also. I am Ok with this, because we are in midst of so much change, that I feel I have shocked ( like in having shock treatment ), and then losing the ability to function. Maybe that is the best position, just not adding or subtracting to what IS.
 

Find that certain memories or interests just seem to "pop" up from day to day. Sometimes they hang around a while and I get the itch to do some new project, and sometimes I realize its just because its the middle of winter or the moon is in a specific phase or something.

The thinking about and then rejecting the idea of getting a dog is a frequent one, though. Especially when sitting in front of a roaring fire...lol.
 
I am having real problems with this these days. It might be information overload, but I hear in my head so many angles on almost any subject, that I can't choose what's real/appropriate to express.
Yep. There are two sides to almost every issue and I have a tendency to want to argue the unpopular side just to get that side aired. It's exhausting and pointless as few people ever change their mind and why should they?

I think I need to concentrate on good things more, read better literature, shut up more.

Last year while I had Covid I ran out of books and read my son's autobiography of Thomas Merton (the monk,) it was so nice just to be in his company. Last night I read "They Came Like Swallows," by William Maxwell and it had the same relaxing, uplifting effect on me. Turns out the two writers were contemporaries. We need more kind, wise people like that.
 

Thomas Merton was a favorite of mine years ago. Now, I am even undecided about his perspective! But, it is the rest and peace of mind that I am chasing. I know , if your chasing it, you can not have it. But there is a saying "Seek and ye shall find". ?
 
I've found butchering wood is an escape hatch from my mental demons.

If I dwell on past experiences and the results, it drives me to God.
I carried some baggage
Hurt a lot of people

He's lightened that load
Just an over the shoulder carry on bag......not much in it

I also lean heavily on humor
.....gets twisty

My paraprosdokian slant can be a bit edgy
Wife used to get all quizzical with the bent humor my mind comes up with
Now she doesn't ask
Just does a lot of baking and knitting

Now, where were we

ah.....

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