Just now read this
The only way I can relate is in thinking of the possible loss of my own sweetest woman.
I’d…. be….. devastated
And I’d want to be left alone
To grieve
Unbridled
Days, maybe
However long it’d take to get my anguish to a tolerable level
I imagine alcohol would be involved
As much as I needed to deaden the pain, and, hopefully pass out
Then, after my grieving period….I’d pray
Pray for guidance, for wisdom, for healing
But only after
My heart is with you, Jim
You have been a member of valor here, and I’d imagine anywhere your presence is known
Your posts have reflected some personal discomfort from time to time, but not in the woe is me sense, just matter of fact
But, never have I read about your other trials, such as what your sweet lady has been dealing with.
In my opinion, it is OK to be weak right now
Your strength will come, but you need an empting, a pouring
And only then, maybe you’ll be able to share this, one of life’s lowest periods
My thoughts, heart, mind, and soul, are with you in this time, brother