I'm concerned about Pepper.

I’m glad you started this new thread Kalia. I’m also very worried about Pepper. She was actively participating on the site and the last we heard from her she was planning on breaking out of the nursing home. I’m wondering if she tried breakng out and something happened. Maybe they took her phone.

If you see this thread Pepper please let us know that you’re ok. Sending loving thoughts & prayers your way.
 
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I don’t know how to say this. I made a BIG MESS of things.

Thursday was supposed to be the day I was to leave nursing home. Only they didn’t let me. I worked myself up over the course of a few hours.
I met with the social worker who seemed twelve years old.
My DIL had told me that she had services in place.

Anyway to make a long story short I called the police to leave. They blocked the entry which infuriated me further. I was not in my right mind. If I have one. Before police showed up they unblocked the door.
So here I was walking down 79th street. Only I could barely walk after not walking for over a month.
Had to ask a delivery guy to help me cross second ave. Once I cross I see DIL coming with my grandson. She’s furious i left this way.
The details got so ugly. I’m ashamed of myself.

I got it in my head that they would never let me leave. For the past ten days they would give me a leave date then changed their minds. So Thursday family brought me home.

Friday DIL had hired nurse. When nurse arrived she said she would not risk her license. I was too sick to treat and needed a hospital. So I wound up back in hospital where I am.

Strange thing my surgeon pushed up vascular bypass to this Monday. It was supposed to be March 30. Glad he did but don’t know why.

And I’ll have to be in a nursing facility after hospital releases me.

The one I am surely banned for life from was only two blocks from where my son lives. That was it’s charm.

I’m worried that I will lose left foot. It hasn’t healed since early November. I’m angry that I’m old and sick and have lost quality of living.

I flipped out and had total breakdown. If what I wrote is a jumbled mess so am I.
 
Pepper said:
I don’t know how to say this. I made a BIG MESS of things.

Thursday was supposed to be the day I was to leave nursing home. Only they didn’t let me. I worked myself up over the course of a few hours.
I met with the social worker who seemed twelve years old.
My DIL had told me that she had services in place.

Anyway to make a long story short I called the police to leave. They blocked the entry which infuriated me further. I was not in my right mind. If I have one. Before police showed up they unblocked the door.
So here I was walking down 79th street. Only I could barely walk after not walking for over a month.
Had to ask a delivery guy to help me cross second ave. Once I cross I see DIL coming with my grandson. She’s furious i left this way.
The details got so ugly. I’m ashamed of myself.

I got it in my head that they would never let me leave. For the past ten days they would give me a leave date then changed their minds. So Thursday family brought me home.

Friday DIL had hired nurse. When nurse arrived she said she would not risk her license. I was too sick to treat and needed a hospital. So I wound up back in hospital where I am.

Strange thing my surgeon pushed up vascular bypass to this Monday. It was supposed to be March 30. Glad he did but don’t know why.

And I’ll have to be in a nursing facility after hospital releases me.

The one I am surely banned for life from was only two blocks from where my son lives. That was it’s charm.

I’m worried that I will lose left foot. It hasn’t healed since early November. I’m angry that I’m old and sick and have lost quality of living.

I flipped out and had total breakdown. If what I wrote is a jumbled mess so am I.
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Oh Pepper...😧 Everything will be ok.
 
Pepper said:
I don’t know how to say this. I made a BIG MESS of things.

Thursday was supposed to be the day I was to leave nursing home. Only they didn’t let me. I worked myself up over the course of a few hours.
I met with the social worker who seemed twelve years old.
My DIL had told me that she had services in place.

Anyway to make a long story short I called the police to leave. They blocked the entry which infuriated me further. I was not in my right mind. If I have one. Before police showed up they unblocked the door.
So here I was walking down 79th street. Only I could barely walk after not walking for over a month.
Had to ask a delivery guy to help me cross second ave. Once I cross I see DIL coming with my grandson. She’s furious i left this way.
The details got so ugly. I’m ashamed of myself.

I got it in my head that they would never let me leave. For the past ten days they would give me a leave date then changed their minds. So Thursday family brought me home.

Friday DIL had hired nurse. When nurse arrived she said she would not risk her license. I was too sick to treat and needed a hospital. So I wound up back in hospital where I am.

Strange thing my surgeon pushed up vascular bypass to this Monday. It was supposed to be March 30. Glad he did but don’t know why.

And I’ll have to be in a nursing facility after hospital releases me.

The one I am surely banned for life from was only two blocks from where my son lives. That was it’s charm.

I’m worried that I will lose left foot. It hasn’t healed since early November. I’m angry that I’m old and sick and have lost quality of living.

I flipped out and had total breakdown. If what I wrote is a jumbled mess so am I.
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Oh, dear, Pepper what a terrible mess. :( I'm so sorry about your situation. It sounds like you're unhappy with the decisions you've made thus far and they certainly haven't turned out well, at all. Is there no one you feel you can trust completely to make sound decisions on your behalf going forward?


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We're all glad to hear from you, Pepper!

Imo,You did the best you could manage to do. I think it's all understandable.

You felt you needed to get out of there. They did nothing to make you feel safe there, or taken respectful care of.

Very sorry that you had to go to the hospital, and that you're afraid of possibly losing your foot.

We'll all be hoping that your surgery will go as well as possible. It seems good that it was moved up, and you can get that next step, very soon, and sooner than you would have.

The quality of life losses.....😭

sending hugs and caring....
From many people, here, to you.
 
It is good to hear from you @Pepper and I am so sorry that this is happening to you. I hope the bypass will help and the next nursing facility will be a better fit for you. Don't worry about what has happened, you are not well and was overwhelmed, it is understandable that you wanted to take flight.

Like so many others here, I wish you well and hope that the coming days are easier for you. xx
 
Wow, Pepper, what a relief to hear from you. I believe once you have that bypass, and your circulation returns to normal, you will be in much better shape and able to think straight. Could be, you were being deprived of some much-needed oxygen in your system, but this ought to change things. Have your daughter-in-law buy an oximeter and check your O/2 levels a couple of times a day. The hospital should be doing this when they take your vitals. Listen to me, Nurse Lois telling you what to do. I guess we never outgrow it regardless. But, I was so concerned about you, it was driving me up a wall.

At any rate, come Monday, I'll be keeping you in my prayers that all goes well. Think positive thoughts my friend, they are important in aiding in a positive outcome and proper healing.

Remember this, you have a host of friends pulling for you because we love you.
 
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