Learning How To Live Life

Morning all!

Finally starting to feel better except for still being upset about what the doctor did to me on Monday. I am contemplating looking for a new provider. I am still very upset with the way he treated me because he was in the wrong.

I'm not apologizing for doing what I was supposed to do or for whatever happened 10 years ago. What I find amusing is he said to me: If you continue this way you're gonna die. Uh...hello! I already am dying and we all die.

There's no stopping it. When it's time, it's time and it's not gonna matter whether or not I have been compliant. You would think he would understand that. Hoping I don't lose my job for having to be off to recover. But if I do I will deal with it or lose everything. One way or another.

So, today I'm gonna increase my activity around the house a bit to see how that goes. I've been dying to try out my Swiffer wet/dry mop. ;) Plus I'm determined to not let life get me down. God brings my heart and soul great joy and I wanna latch on to that.

I'm just very irritated that the doctor made me feel anxious and depressed by the way he acted towards me the other day. It was very upsetting. I try to be a good patient as best I can. But I'm not taking treatments and medications and seeing doctors that I don't feel are helping me or are making me more sick.

He's upset with me because I won't take medicines that cause adverse reactions like severe vomiting. When has our care been based on doing what makes the doctors happy? What about what's best for us and what we want?

They tell us we have the right to refuse things but when we do we are labeled as non compliant and given a hard time about it. I am starting to feel like the older I get the more I am losing the ability to make my own choices.

I am a very direct individual and I despise being made to feel like I'm forced to do something I don't want to because I don't feel like it's safe. I want someone who will allow me to be part of my healthcare. I feel like they just think all of us old people are bat sh*t crazy and can't make informed choices for themselves.

Infuriating.
 
Well, I gave the kitchen and bath a quickie mop with the Swiffer and my O2 sats stayed within reasoning and held on good so tomorrow I will vac the living room and bedroom and see how that goes.

These are things I have to do when I return to work so I will see. Friday I will work on carrying things through the house that might weigh what I would walk with at work and see what happens. Then rest the weekend and see the doc on Monday to see if I can go back Tuesday.

I plan to talk to the pulmo doc the 10th about a care plan for when I get sick again and talk with him about what the provider did and see if he thinks I should look for a new provider.

So all in all a great day so far.
 

@katlupe believe me I'm thinking about it. I'm still upset about what happened. I'm going to look into it. There's another clinic in town with different doctors but if they're not taking new patients I may be stuck.

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Morning everyone. My O2 sats are doing good this morning so I plan to vacuum later and see how that goes. Plus I need to be a little more up and around today so I might hang out in the living room today. Watch some Big Bang Theory and play some Sims or something. I need to see how I fare without a nap. LOL!

I have a couple chores to do and need to make something to eat. I have some fish in the freezer I've been wanting to make so I might do that with some veggies and maybe a boiled potato. I don't know yet. I'm just enjoying the moment of just sitting here.

I am feeling very calm and relaxed this morning. Wish I could feel like this all the time.
 
Morning everyone!

Sats are doing good today. I should be ok to return to work on Tuesday. Hopefully they won't fire me for being gone but we'll see. I couldn't really help it so there's that.

I always have trouble with the FMLA stuff because they always create more grief than they do assistance. So trying to get a claim taken care of is a major pain.

I am very unhappy with things that have taken place with the doctors and the hospital this month. I don't know what's going on. I told them I take baby aspirin occasionally if I have a little heart pain but because of my Tourette's I can't take it all the time.

So the hospitalist orders aspirin for me for my first night in the hospital and has it as daily and I don't even know what for. It's like they don't pay any attention to what you tell them. It's like they're doing the opposite and trying to kill me? I just don't get it.

I'm just highly annoyed right now by the care I've been getting. Not sure what can be done about it.

Having my morning coffee and chit chat. I will probably spend some more time in the living room today. Planning to go see how far the country has slid downhill today when I go look at the headlines in The Guardian. ;)

Waiting on a form for financial assistance to be mailed to me. I hope I get it this time. This was the 2nd time I had to call and request it. It's like nobody pays attn anymore.
 
good grief! the neighbor down the alley is at it again. we now have to listen to 2, 4, maybe even six hours of music until one of us calls the police. *puts earphones in* have to watch tv with the earphones in so i don't go bonkers. some days i genuinely hate people.
 
Morning.

Doing ok today. I'll hafta take it slow when I go back to work so I don't overdo it. But looking forward to getting back to it. Hoping in the next year I can transfer to a desk job or find something I can do from home.

Nothing but rest on the agenda until Tuesday. Doc on Monday afternoon and hopefully he won't be a jerk again. I'm still upset about that and probably will be for a while. It wouldn't have bothered me if it were accurate but he was making accusations that were not true.

Anyway, enough of that nonsense. Just gonna relax and not think about it. LOL! I hope. Gonna hang out in the living room again today. Watch some Big Bang and play some Wii games. It's so hard to not fret about the future. Too many things on my mind.
 
Getting ready to have lunch and I'm gonna watch the Tom Cruise movie Jack Reacher. I tried to watch the tv series but didn't care for that. Hoping to enjoy the movie though. I usually like all of Tom Cruise's movies.
 
Fritz said:
Morning all!

Finally starting to feel better except for still being upset about what the doctor did to me on Monday. I am contemplating looking for a new provider. I am still very upset with the way he treated me because he was in the wrong.

I'm not apologizing for doing what I was supposed to do or for whatever happened 10 years ago. What I find amusing is he said to me: If you continue this way you're gonna die. Uh...hello! I already am dying and we all die.

There's no stopping it. When it's time, it's time and it's not gonna matter whether or not I have been compliant. You would think he would understand that. Hoping I don't lose my job for having to be off to recover. But if I do I will deal with it or lose everything. One way or another.

So, today I'm gonna increase my activity around the house a bit to see how that goes. I've been dying to try out my Swiffer wet/dry mop. ;) Plus I'm determined to not let life get me down. God brings my heart and soul great joy and I wanna latch on to that.

I'm just very irritated that the doctor made me feel anxious and depressed by the way he acted towards me the other day. It was very upsetting. I try to be a good patient as best I can. But I'm not taking treatments and medications and seeing doctors that I don't feel are helping me or are making me more sick.

He's upset with me because I won't take medicines that cause adverse reactions like severe vomiting. When has our care been based on doing what makes the doctors happy? What about what's best for us and what we want?

They tell us we have the right to refuse things but when we do we are labeled as non compliant and given a hard time about it. I am starting to feel like the older I get the more I am losing the ability to make my own choices.

I am a very direct individual and I despise being made to feel like I'm forced to do something I don't want to because I don't feel like it's safe. I want someone who will allow me to be part of my healthcare. I feel like they just think all of us old people are bat sh*t crazy and can't make informed choices for themselves.

Infuriating.
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I can relate so much about thoughtless doctors. Mine is no longer my provider. I fired him! I will be seeing a new doctor in August who happens to be a female, not that females can't get rude too. I've been through a lot with doctors. I agree about dying, it's going to happen to me someday anyway and really the way I feel is I almost want to get this miserable life over with. It's just been such a hard life and losing my little doggie was the straw! Sorry if I sound too negative but it's how I've been feeling lately.

I have stopped taking many medicines because of side effects. One medicine had me hallucinating and it was very unpleasant. I told the doctor at that time about that and she yelled at me. I fired her right after that nonsense.,
 
Good morning.

Lungs are feeling more normal today. Hoping to go back to work Tuesday. I don't regret asking for leave to recover from being sick. I needed to.

I've had my coffee and showered and watched my church service. Might watch the last sermon in the series I'm on yet. I hafta wash my cpap equipment before lunch. I need to do my breathing treatment yet too. Busy day I guess. LOL!

Not much going on. Just getting as rested up as I can for my return to work.
 

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