Learning How To Live Life

Morning all!

Finally starting to feel better except for still being upset about what the doctor did to me on Monday. I am contemplating looking for a new provider. I am still very upset with the way he treated me because he was in the wrong.

I'm not apologizing for doing what I was supposed to do or for whatever happened 10 years ago. What I find amusing is he said to me: If you continue this way you're gonna die. Uh...hello! I already am dying and we all die.

There's no stopping it. When it's time, it's time and it's not gonna matter whether or not I have been compliant. You would think he would understand that. Hoping I don't lose my job for having to be off to recover. But if I do I will deal with it or lose everything. One way or another.

So, today I'm gonna increase my activity around the house a bit to see how that goes. I've been dying to try out my Swiffer wet/dry mop. ;) Plus I'm determined to not let life get me down. God brings my heart and soul great joy and I wanna latch on to that.

I'm just very irritated that the doctor made me feel anxious and depressed by the way he acted towards me the other day. It was very upsetting. I try to be a good patient as best I can. But I'm not taking treatments and medications and seeing doctors that I don't feel are helping me or are making me more sick.

He's upset with me because I won't take medicines that cause adverse reactions like severe vomiting. When has our care been based on doing what makes the doctors happy? What about what's best for us and what we want?

They tell us we have the right to refuse things but when we do we are labeled as non compliant and given a hard time about it. I am starting to feel like the older I get the more I am losing the ability to make my own choices.

I am a very direct individual and I despise being made to feel like I'm forced to do something I don't want to because I don't feel like it's safe. I want someone who will allow me to be part of my healthcare. I feel like they just think all of us old people are bat sh*t crazy and can't make informed choices for themselves.

Infuriating.
 
Well, I gave the kitchen and bath a quickie mop with the Swiffer and my O2 sats stayed within reasoning and held on good so tomorrow I will vac the living room and bedroom and see how that goes.

These are things I have to do when I return to work so I will see. Friday I will work on carrying things through the house that might weigh what I would walk with at work and see what happens. Then rest the weekend and see the doc on Monday to see if I can go back Tuesday.

I plan to talk to the pulmo doc the 10th about a care plan for when I get sick again and talk with him about what the provider did and see if he thinks I should look for a new provider.

So all in all a great day so far.
 

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