Learning How To Live Life

Kinda having a rough day emotionally. There's a desk job open at my facility that I could transfer to in as little as 30 days but since I've received 2 written counselings in the past 6 mo I am ineligible. They weren't for anything behavioral. There were some cleaning issues. Things I missed. Supposedly. Not sure I completely trust what was reported. So I will have to wait and hope for the best.

I am struggling because this is part of some spiritual struggles I've been going through as well so I figure God must be getting ready to hit me with some spiritual growth which is fine by me. I have a couple areas in my walk where I am not that strong.

In the past 2 wks I've lost 10 lbs.
Thankful for that. It's a start. I've almost completely given up my sugary snacks and been eating mostly fruit and yogurt and stuff like that. I drink very little soda pop now too. That stuff is more of an occasional treat now.

So I spent a little bit of time in my head freaking out. I've calmed down now and I will be ok. I just have to stay calm and hang in there.

Goodnight my friends.
 

O2 sats are doing well this morning compared to a couple days ago. I have a few chores to do and I need to do some of my rehab exercises today to help strengthen me for my return to work.

Trying another Sims game on my phone. I tried one that I didn't care for. I'll see if this other one is any better. I found another site last night to add to my collection where I can chat and there's a forum. So we'll see. Maybe I can make some more friends yet.

I recently got myself another wireless mouse cuz I hate the little mousepad on my Chromebook. It's not nearly as effective. I bought a Logitech mouse this time cuz that cheapo one I bought last time didn't survive long.

I slept about 10 hrs last night. I woke a few times throughout but only to use the bathroom. It was so nice to sleep good. I'm not coughing as much now so I'm getting more rest. Fatigued though so I put an extra tsp of coffee in my mug this morning. Hopefully I'll perk up soon. ;)

I might look and see if I can find a movie online to watch today. Maybe I can rent one from Amazon if I can't find something free. Looking through the list on Amazon I think I'm gonna rent Thelma. Looks amusing. Be back later!
 
Well today has been a much better day. Although I still think I have some sinus infection yet so I'm gonna let the doc know Monday that I'd like more antibiotic. I gotta do my dishes then I'm gonna settle down for the night. Hopefully all will be well soon. :)
 
good morning everyone.
i finally got some rest. monday can't get here soon enough. hopefully the doc will take care of me and fill out my fmla paperwork. i didn't wanna take the fmla but i really felt it was in my best interest because i wasn't able to do my job.

not much planned today. i will do some walking rehab for my lungs today. probably just play video games and chat and watch tv.

i might make fish for dinner this evening.
 
Resting today. I have my doc appt tomorrow and will have to cross 3 parking lots to get to the pharmacy to pick up meds. Then I will rest the remainder of the day. Tuesday I will do more self rehab. Trying to every day unless I get too tired. I am still not feeling well because of the infection that is still carrying on.

I watched my church service. Thinking of playing some video games. Maybe doing some reading. Otherwise not a bad day. =o)
 
currently watching hot in cleveland and debating on getting an apple or two to eat with some peanut butter. i'm trying to get them ate up since i lost 3 days with that hospital stay. i played some animal crossing and might play some stardew valley later on my phone.

i think i'm gonna keep this avatar cuz it cracks me up. i need to go do my dishes. bbl
 
I hope that your appointment with the Dr is helpful, on Monday! And that the entire outing is not too awfully rough for you.

Hope you'll be able to sleep tonight despite the ongoing infection.
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Fritz said:
I have 35 more minutes until I can take some pills. Then I'm going back to bed.
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I take a sleeping pill and a fish oil capsule before I go to bed. I take a multivitamin pill in the morning with my breakfast. But this week, my doctor gave me antibiotics pills to take twice a day ( morning and evening) because of my gum infection in the mouth.
 
OldOld said:
I take a sleeping pill and a fish oil capsule before I go to bed. I take a multivitamin pill in the morning with my breakfast. But this week, my doctor gave me antibiotics pills to take twice a day ( morning and evening) because of my gum infection in the mouth.
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Hope the infection gets better soon.
 
A little good news this morning...my o2 sats are doing better but I am still feeling as though the infection is lingering so gonna see if doc will give me some more antibiotic. But at least I don't feel like I'm gonna die this morning.

Getting around the house a little better. My appt with the doc for the follow up is at 2:45 this afternoon. I'll know more then. I'll hafta see if they can get my fmla paperwork filled out and faxed back.

I found an adorable little fashion game on my phone that reminds me of the very first Style Savvy game I played on my Nintendo 3DS. I started playing that last night and worked on Stardew Valley and Animal Crossing some.

Having my coffee and getting ready to do my breathing treatment. Then I'll hafta start getting ready for my appt. I'll post later after my appt.
 
Well, I have been home from the drs office since around 4:30 or so. I was just so upset about my visit today I needed time to calm down. He didn't examine me or give me anymore antibiotic. Instead he told me I wasn't sick and that I needed to see the pulmonologist and then spent an hour telling me how non compliant I've been for the past 10 yrs and chewed my a** and accused me of stuff I haven't said or done.

He accused me of saying I was compliant when I wasn't. Accused me of not filling inhalers for 3 months which there's no way that happened.

I was in tears when I left. He's going to fill out my FMLA paperwork this time but next time I get sick I have to call the pulmo doc first. The information they have in my files is incorrect. They stated in my file that I said I had no pulmonologist and that is not true. The hospitalist didn't finish my discharge information so that's not correct either.

And the pulmo doc never put any information into his records that I was trying to get off my oxygen as he and I discussed so my primary thinks I was supposed to be on it all the time and he accused me of being non compliant there. He told me I didn't even have my oxygen with me. It was in my bag. He said one time I had no bag which is bullsh*t cuz I never leave the house without my bag.

He claims I refused all the inhalers he offered me over the years which is BS. If I did they were ones I can't take. I was so upset when I left. I go back the 23rd to get cleared to go back to work. Hopefully I'll be alright.

Doc says he wants to take care of me but he doesn't want to do what the pulmo doc should be doing. I understand that. But obviously I needed meds or I wouldn't have ended up in the hospital. My white cells were still elevated when they sent me home.

I'm confused because when I'm sick I call the doctor right away because I want to get it tended to so I don't end up in the hospital. But he said there's no way it would've been bacterial. They gave me the antibiotic to keep me from getting pneumonia.

So I am calling the pulmo's office tomorrow for some clarification on the oxygen because I know damn good and well he didn't want me on it all the time cuz we were trying to wean me off it. He never ordered the sleep study to see if I still needed it overnight so, next month when I go in he and I are gonna have a chat about the record keeping and what to do with me.

My primary said I refused to go to the pulmo at all and that's a lie. Only the one dr because he wouldn't help me. I was completely ok with seeing this new guy and he's saying I wasn't. I was p*ssed. An hour and 15 min of verbal reprimand,accusations and attack on me.

No check up, no listening to my lungs, or my symptoms, just an attack. So I'm not sure what to do. I am very upset. He made me feel like I was crazy and like I shouldn't be calling for an appt if I'm sick.

So far today I haven't needed any oxygen. But I worry. If I do still have infection in my sinuses it could go septic but since I don't have every symptom he won't listen to me.
 
I'm very sorry that went so terribly. 😵‍💫😔

I'm having a difficult evening myself, but I came here to check on you, and wanted to leave you this note.
 
That sounds like a good idea, if you can get a half decent one.
It was such a terribly upsetting and disappointing and frustrating day for you.
I decided to come back and say good night.
Going to bed now.
Hugs....
 
Kaila said:
That sounds like a good idea, if you can get a half decent one.
It was such a terribly upsetting and disappointing and frustrating day for you.
I decided to come back and say good night.
Going to bed now.
Hugs....
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Night sweetheart
 

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