Thank you too! I have found this site to be one of the best, with the best people, everybody here seems to be both extremely good-hearted and highly intelligent!I wish for everyone who contributed or read my post generated a sense of joy within themselves for coming to the aid of a total stranger. Your responses were and still are very helpful to and the forum community. Thank you for your show of kindness and the blessings you bring.
I forgot to add that a lot of joy comes from our pets, especially cats and dogs and some birds.
I embrace all thoughts because they are me. To deny myself of thought whatever content it may be is living with one eye shut.
Exactly my thoughts. Candles and those tiny warm white fairy lights cheer me on dark days. Not to the point of joy, but they do lessen the darkness of winter.
. The mashed potatoes and jar of gravy was fine. And they liked the dry broccoli cheese soup just add water. She had two bowls.
Well, when I am really sad, I wallow in it. Put on a sad song CD, get into bed, under the covers, and wallow in it. Get all the sadness out. Then when I can’t stand my level of sadness, I throw a pity party.
Up, out of bed, have ice cream and with the sweetness of my favorite dessert, the tv on, I think about things. Just things and how life can truly suck. But at least I have ice cream. Then my thoughts drift to people that don’t have ice cream or a warm house or a tv or a somewhat new furry blanket to keep them warm and comfortable in a recliner.
And, I realize that my life might be challenging, at times, sad at times, depressing at times, it’s still better than the guy I saw sleeping on sidewalk on the street the other morning as we drove past in a warm car on the way to my X-ray.
The holidays are always stressful and they are especially stressful this year. My husband gets especially not nice during the holidays. So my husband, the virus, the state of our country, and life in general pressing us all down. But, when my son’s long time girlfriend came over with him on thanksgiving and ate a turkey leg.
Oh the Joy.
The turkey didn’t kill anyone. She is Chinese so she didn’t notice the stuffing was stove top.
Joy comes when you least expect it.
As for the holidays, we will not decorate this year, too many dead, too many sick, too many homeless, I just can’t do it. I will remember that Jesus Christ was born in a stable, that my two disabled sons live through the grace of God, that my children love me, and that the sadness of this year will, at some point in time, pass.
@Mr. Ed -It’s ok to be sad, it will pass-just wait
I am sorry about the scuba diving, the open water certification which you badly want, and the money spent. I understand that, and that it’s due to the failure of your body, which you didn’t expect. But, then again, nothing else might happen. It’s a wait and see situation.
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. If only I drank. Just wait @Mr. Ed things may be fine, things may not be fine, but YOU will be fine. You’ve gotten lots of good advice from a lot of good old dying people.
Very well said Gaer...found out if I stand beside a tree...especially the large old trees, for minutes the sweet blanket of quiet nature opens up a type of energy vortex where it is possible to become aware of the subtle energies of the earth. To me, that's what the higher dimensions are about...becoming "aware" of the living energies. Its all about the ability to feel the energy, vibration and allignment with same. Life is eternal.
My God led me to the path of spirituality after I went on a long path of searching for him/her. He/she taught me self love/care in my daily commune with him.
No, No please you didn't anger me to be honest I didn't understand what you were trying to get across. If anything, I owe you an apology
Yoyr'e very wise and kindI am sorry about the scuba diving, the open water certification which you badly want, and the money spent. I understand that, and that it’s due to the failure of your body, which you didn’t expect. But, then again, nothing else might happen. It’s a wait and see situation.
My wants are much simpler. I wish I could go to the bathroom without a taking a lot of laxatives. I can’t swim, but if I could swim, I couldn’t go swimming because, well, laxatives are unpredictable. TMI?
Then there is my cancer, MDS, or my kidney failure, or the intestinal failure, the heart failure or the 23 operations I’ve already had or the three operations that are upcoming. Honestly, my whole body has failed me my whole life. I could go on about my other medical issues, but I won’t. You may have noticed I have no problem talking about myself.
I started dying the day I was born. Seriously, I was negative, mother was positive. I had a complete blood transfusion. But all of us are dying, but you are not dead today. Neither am I. As I said, it’s ok to be disappointed and in a funk. But you know this. You know it will pass.
I heard a country song yesterday, the song said when life gives me lemons, I put them in my drink.
As for dying, none of us can live forever and most of us don’t want to. Feel better.
Instead of pronouns why not just say god? He/she annoys me, but I'm very crabby, so I ask you to forgive me @hellomimi!
My post just disappeared and didn’t save, just saying. Anyway, one more try., IMO. So it’s better using him/her IMO, speaking for myself only, not for @hellomimi. Although I do forget at times to do this, I try not too. “Mom, are you cranky?” 
