Never So Alone As I Am, Now!

@palides2021 - I have prayed to God and asked him to deliver me from enough of the anhedonia to let me feel my Faith the way I used to. There is no change in me. When you pray, you should believe that you will receive that for which you have prayed. In order to feel confident in receiving it, I have to be in touch with my reward centre in the brain, to believe that anything good will happen, from praying. The irony is...that's probably why my prayers are ineffectual...I can't generate any confidence in getting relief enough to feel even my Faith, again. To be able to say that is so bizarre...believe me. :(
 
Ian McKlatchie said:
@palides2021 - I have prayed to God and asked him to deliver me from enough of the anhedonia to let me feel my Faith the way I used to. There is no change in me. When you pray, you should believe that you will receive that for which you have prayed. In order to feel confident in receiving it, I have to be in touch with my reward centre in the brain, to believe that anything good will happen, from praying. The irony is...that's probably why my prayers are ineffectual...I can't generate any confidence in getting relief enough to feel even my Faith, again. To be able to say that is so bizarre...believe me. :(
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Still keep praying, and wait for an answer. One day you will hear His voice. Trust in God.
 
Meanderer said:
Simply put, are you able to talk generally about your mother, since this is mother's day? If not, that is ok.
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Yes. I can talk about my mother. She died 21 years ago. We'd lived together all my life. That's when the worst of the loneliness began to grow from, I think. I spent the next 20 years in entirely my own company. In fact, to give an idea how alone that was...until I got to the hospital, last year, I didn't even realise that I was going deaf - there had been no humans to listen to, to give me an idea of it.
 
Ian McKlatchie said:
@palides2021 - I have prayed to God and asked him to deliver me from enough of the anhedonia to let me feel my Faith the way I used to. There is no change in me. When you pray, you should believe that you will receive that for which you have prayed. In order to feel confident in receiving it, I have to be in touch with my reward centre in the brain, to believe that anything good will happen, from praying. The irony is...that's probably why my prayers are ineffectual...I can't generate any confidence in getting relief enough to feel even my Faith, again. To be able to say that is so bizarre...believe me. :(
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Marc 9:24 Just pray: Lord I believe. Help my unbelief. Peter had small faith when he was sinking, but Jesus grabbed his hand and pulled him up.

Corrie ten Boom was 5 years old. She lived in the Smedestraat (that means Smith street). She said: Lord save all people in the Smedestraat and the police officers. She said: Decades later different people would call her and say: My husband got saved. Oh what a coincidence. He lived in the same street. My husband got saved. He was a police officer in the Smedestraat.
 
Ian McKlatchie said:
@C50 - I'm a member of quite a few of them, yes. There is sometimes some help, there, but very few of the members ever fully understand anhedonia and what a mess it makes of a person's life. These are very frightening times.
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I hope some of the suggestions you receive here will be of some help. Believe me when I say that you are not alone. In trying to help yourself along the way, you might be helping someone else with similar issues that they're uncomfortable addressing on a forum. We can all help each other by listening, learning, and becoming more aware of others plight.
 
We don't all need other people in order to be content. I also have agoraphobia but it's gradually getting better. However, I simply prefer my own company which many people find difficult to accept. This is where the internet is so useful. I can chat to people without their physical presence. I attract 'needy' people, so I'm better off alone.
There are people here from different parts of the world so, wherever you are, there is always someone here.
 
I had a severe depressive episode, today. It felt like a depressive relapse, but no...it wasn't quite bad enough to call it that. Everything crowded in on me and I really started to fear for my own life. So, I phoned The Samaritans and talked to one of their people. I couldn't speak for crying for the first 20+ minutes, but that felt like it desperately needed to come out of me. Now, after that, I find myself in a bit of a brain fog - routine, after crying bitterly, I think. I'll just cruise through the rest of my day and see how it all goes, next. Today has been a bit of a shock to me.
 
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Ian do you have any pets? Sorry if that questions already been asked. Many many people find great joy in a pet, plus their care gives you a purpose everyday. And then there's the love a pet can give you, possibly more healing better than therapy and drugs.
 
My last pet was put down in front of me in 1983. I couldn't go through that, again. I do, however, feel that there is therapy to be found in the company of such animals. When I was in the psychiatric hospital, last year, for 2 months, once a week, just after relaxation therapy, "Therapy Dogs" were brought into the room and the presence of those was quite nice. :)
 
I know how it feels to be lonely which is not the same as being alone.
Most of the time I'm fine, but once in a while, I get what can only be described as "crushing loneliness".
I can't get interested in anything, and I don't have anyone I can talk to about it, so I pray on it, and it will eventually go away for a while.
 
Ian McKlatchie said:
My last pet was put down in front of me in 1983. I couldn't go through that, again. I do, however, feel that there is therapy to be found in the company of such animals. When I was in the psychiatric hospital, last year, for 2 months, once a week, just after relaxation therapy, "Therapy Dogs" were brought into the room and the presence of those was quite nice. :)
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I don't know about UK but here in the states there are organizations and programs that provide therapy dog visits to homebound individuals, including those with agoraphobia, anxiety, or other mental health conditions that prevent them from leaving their homes.
That's something you might want to check out to see if there are any in your area if you are interested.
 
TeePee said:
I don't know about UK but here in the states there are organizations and programs that provide therapy dog visits to homebound individuals, including those with agoraphobia, anxiety, or other mental health conditions that prevent them from leaving their homes.
That's something you might want to check out to see if there are any in your area if you are interested.
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@TeePee Thanks, for that, good fellow!
 
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