Never So Alone As I Am, Now!

I used to be a firm believer in my Guardian Angel! I had seen far too much to ever again entertain doubts!

Then, I was struck down by this Acute Dysphoric Anhedonia and my ability to feel pleasure, comfort or reward vanished. No spiritual comfort left...no spiritually connected feeling.

Now, I feel completely disconnected from that Guardian Angel!

I like to think that I'm still, somehow, connected to that Guardian Angel, but, after asking for a sign of some kind, all I can now do is wait, and see if I get one!

Anhedonia is the cruellest of the mental health conditions...just like loneliness, it removes your life while forcing you to go on living it!
 
Paco Dennis said:
I watched the video. Have you tried to change/transform the negative messages you produce into positive messages?
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I reach, deep down inside me, for the ability to feel something positive, but the only positive I feel is that I'm positive that my Guardian Angel (once, a great source of comfort to me) is offline. I just look inside me and feel...nothing. This condition is never in a hurry to go away...it stays until it leaves. You don't make it go away. You can't.
 
Paco Dennis said:
I wonder if repeating mantras/affirmations and keep them in mind even when you are feeling void. Maybe repeating something like "my spirit now is silent and quiet. Soon it will rise again to bring me life". Remember and repeat it all throughout the day. Have you tried anything like that?
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Well, oddly enough...I think I've always believed in that. Like the words build up like carpet layers and, sooner or later, there are enough to be more than just repeated words - so, yes...I think those work. Finding precisely the right one is important, probably. In my diaries, when I was a teenager, I called them "Posigestions", and used them a lot. Thank you for reminding me of mantras...I think that there is a useful tool in them.
 
I am reminded of the old adage - If you change nothing, nothing changes.

I think you need to be proactive and make changes even if they are baby steps.

Make yourself excercise more, get out the house more, connect with people, have some purposeful activity.....
 
Ian McKlatchie said:
I used to be a firm believer in my Guardian Angel! I had seen far too much to ever again entertain doubts!

Then, I was struck down by this Acute Dysphoric Anhedonia and my ability to feel pleasure, comfort or reward vanished. No spiritual comfort left...no spiritually connected feeling.

Now, I feel completely disconnected from that Guardian Angel!

I like to think that I'm still, somehow, connected to that Guardian Angel, but, after asking for a sign of some kind, all I can now do is wait, and see if I get one!

Anhedonia is the cruellest of the mental health conditions...just like loneliness, it removes your life while forcing you to go on living it!
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What medications are you on, if any? Some medications can make you feel like a Zombie. I was briefly on Prozac years ago, but I took myself off of it because I had no emotions with it. I hated that feeling.
 
@January - Yes. I think that there is value in exercise, but I must learn to force myself to exercise.
@TeePee - I'm on 30mg a night of Mirtazepine. I can't increase it, swap it for another, or add any other, because of weak kidneys.
 
@palides2021 - I asked my Guardian Angel for some sign that I was still somehow connected to them, and I received absolutely nothing! I feel truly and absolutely abandoned and I still have no idea what I ever did to deserve this!
 
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