I wish my health allowed it. I do spend freely and still have hundreds left over every month but that's becasue spending freely herein means a few dollars on my grandma games (i.e., pic packs in my jigsaw app; I am addicted), streaming some movies or if I see a nice shirt or knick knack or something and junk I shouldn't buy at the convenience store. (GD you, 3 Musketeers.)
My health is the pits. I raised a daughter alone without welfare or child support. I guess I'm used to living pay to pay. I'm quite shocked that I actually have a few thousand in savings.
Assisted living aka nursing homes is simply unaffordable. I can't even consider it no matter how bad off I get and frankly, I'd rather die. If I'm to be shipped off to one of them to be abused and neglected while kept alive by unnatural means so the nursing home can swipe both my SS and my pension, just put me out of my misery. Nope. I'm not willingly going to one no matter what my health is. If I go senile, they'll have to jump the legal hoops to commit me to old people's prison and I hope I die within in a month of being there.
Add to my fear of doctors, the fact that a very dear friend of mine was in one following a stroke and well I'm not sharing her experience but let's just say it was not pleasant. I'm glad she's out and recovering, back home with her six cats. She's better off with the cats taking care of her than the a-holes in nursing homes.
Another friend of mine, young fellow, worked at a nursing home during college (just a few years ago) and he continually says emphatically to me, don't go into one no matter what. He was an orderly and always fighting with the nurses because he was caring and attentive and they didn't like his taking the time to make patients comfortable and chat with them so they didn't feel lonely as he wheeled them somewhere or his duties brought him into their room and also because he spoke up and objected when he saw them yelling at patients, etc.
Nope. Give me liberty or give me death. No nursing home. No thank you. I'd rather die at home.
If a little is left behind for my daughter and grandson, swell. If not, not. If I see something I want, want to buy it and have the money, I'm going to.