The terrible impact mental illness can exact in a person’s life.

Aneeda72 said:
Let me say this. I do not think IDK was depressed. Could he have had a different mental illness?-sure. Could he have been a troll?-sure. Could he have just been messing with us?-sure. I stand by what I said on that thread. Let’s face it, I have never been accused of being politically correct.

He finally admitted his needs were being taken care of, food, housing, medical through Ireland’s welfare system. If he was in government housing, then he was not alone and had access to company if he wanted company. He chose to sit and stare at the wall. He wanted money-for what? His needs were being met.

Street drugs? A TV? Extra food? We will never know. I am curious but the thread was locked and there you have it.

I did foster care for mentally ill children.

I had one child that tried to hang himself from a tree in our back yard, the branch broke. 🤦🏻‍♀️ The same child tried to hang himself from his clothes rack in his bedroom. It broke. Another child painted her bedroom with her mensural blood. A different girl re-enacted the moment she was raped by her father. A two year old who inserted a barbie doll and masturbated with it (try explaining that to a doctor and not getting yourself arrested). I could go on, but you get the picture.

I am NOT a medical professional. I don't have a 4 year college degree. I am not politically correct. There are some mentally ill people that scare the crap out of me, especially those with multi personality issues.

But there are also people I just don’t lIke-mentally ill or not, (my mother for example), physically ill or not, (my neighbor for example), myself sometimes, definitely my husband 😂. Just saying that both mental illness and physical illness take their toll on people, (for example, I whine a lot).

None of us chooses to be mentally or physical ill or both. All of us have the right to react to each other as we please. If this involves not being “kind” to each other, sorry @Shalimar, virus or no virus, so be it.
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Wow.

I'm 3/4 insane cuz of the virus and all that has happened/been ruined in my life because of it. While I respect your right to be you and make your own decisions, for myself, I agree with Shali and could certainly do with some kindness at this time. So many of us are more fragile and not ourselves right now.
 

Shalimar said:
What an inspiration you are. Such strength and tenacity in order to reclaim your life, and then to use your experiences to help others. Yes, some mentally ill people are able to forge

meaningful and productive lives as you have, I only wish it could be possible for all. With your permission, I would like to share your story in one of my online veterans group sessions. They could really benefit from hearing such a positive story.
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Sure I’d be honored
 
Mr. Ed said:
I bought a handgun at a pawn shop with the intention to kill myself but I reason the gun would make too much noice if I shot myself.
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I have no doubt you've done something like that because you've detailed your struggle with mental illness. I know what a miserable fight it is.

My daughter completed suicide after ten years of fighting hers. No drama, she just had enough. Because of that, I
have no patience with people who use the threat of suicide to ply the sympathy of others.
 
Judycat said:
I have no doubt you've done something like that because you've detailed your struggle with mental illness. I know what a miserable fight it is.

My daughter completed suicide after ten years of fighting hers. No drama, she just had enough. Because of that, I
have no patience with people who use the threat of suicide to ply the sympathy of others.
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I mixed feelings about suicide, for one life can be so overwhelming that one might think suicide is the best alternative. On the hand can seem like a selfish gesture to end one’s life in view of all who loves and will miss them.

I don’t consider death to be that big of a deal, it has been around since life began and will continue to baffle us until we learn for ourselves.

I have no problem with suicide except that there may be more work in my life to be completed. However, who is to say that suicide is my final gesture of this lifetime? It is best to die honorably.
 
Mr. Ed said:
I mixed feelings about suicide, for one life can be so overwhelming that one might think suicide is the best alternative. On the hand can seem like a selfish gesture to end one’s life in view of all who loves and will miss them.

I don’t consider death to be that big of a deal, it has been around since life began and will continue to baffle us until we learn for ourselves.

I have no problem with suicide except that there may be more work in my life to be completed. However, who is to say that suicide is my final gesture of this lifetime? It is best to die honorably.
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I have mixed feelings about suicide as well. It is viewed as a sin in the Catholic Church as it is a disruption of God’s plan for our lives. In other words, our death may be before his plans for our life are completed. But we were given free choice, so if we choose to die, then suicide should not be a sin. Confusing.

But, @Mr. Ed I have discovered, IMO, we are meant to be alive, and stay alive, not for ourselves but for others. For that one single second in time when a fellow human reaches out and we respond, and make a difference in their lives, not on ours.

You are so right, Mr. Ed. We must, you must, complete your journey through life so that others can complete theirs.
 
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In my case, crashing into a full blown episode of CPTSD where flashbacks etc stole my reality and stuck in a Hell without end, suicide was not a choice. I could no longer think, only react. It all happened very quickly. The cage doors blew open, the demons of my childhood escaped, and my sanity was devoured. I woke up in ICU having no idea whatsoever what had happened to me.
 
The scary thing is, it is all too probable the same thing could happen again. My chosen career/vocation is a ticking time bomb for someone with my Disorder. But this is what gives meaning to my life, so I will walk the high wire without a net for as long as I am able and smile. I am so grateful for the privilege and opportunity to serve. 🥰😁
 
Shalimar said:
In my case, crashing into a full blown episode of CPTSD where flashbacks etc stole my reality and stuck in a Hell without end, suicide was not a choice. I could no longer think, only react. It all happened very quickly. The cage doors blew open, the demons of my childhood escaped, and my sanity was devoured. I woke up in ICU having no idea whatsoever what had happened to me.
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Shalimar said:
The scary thing is, it is all too probable the same thing could happen again. My chosen career/vocation is a ticking time bomb for someone with my Disorder. But this is what gives meaning to my life, so I will walk the high wire without a net for as long as I am able and smile. I am so grateful for the privilege and opportunity to serve. 🥰😁
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Aneeda72 said:
How did you get to the ICU? What was the intervention force? Who helped you?

Jesus Christ did not suicide, not did he suicide by cop (Roman soldiers). He born for us, and died for us, and returned for us, as the human race must do for others. Humans helping humans, as we do now during the pandemic, as we do when there is no pandemic.

@Shalimar, what a joy and blessing that you survived to help your vets.
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I was blessed, a friend dropped by and set in motion the help required to save my life.
 
StarSong said:
There were times when I busied myself by cutting holes in my safety net. I understand what @Shalimar is saying.
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Aneeda72 said:
I disagree. If the people AROUND you are aware and CARE, they have your back as you have theirs. Even if you miss the net as you fall into the abyss , a friend, or stranger, will catch you, and you will be saved. Even if you are not saved from death, you will be saved from the abyss.

This is how it works for the humane race.

I remember when the Pope said everyone goes to heaven, and the Church walked it back a bit. Didn’t matter what the Church said. We all live in hell on earth, different degrees, different levels, hells we make, hells others make.

We will all go to heaven even if heaven is only a lack of hell. We will always be with the ones we love, in person, or in our memories, they are always with us, in our hearts. God is always with us, belief is not necessary.
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I am not afraid of going crazy, I am afraid of committing suicide while in a CPTSD induced dissociative state. But that is the price of doing the job I love and I accept the risks involved.
 

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