I'm sorry I sound like a lunatic. I'm really the worst patient. That's how I know attitude plays a very small part in the fight against cancer. I've had it twice and survived being miserable. Well, the second time I was in an incredble single room with a view of the East River & a fairly good menu, and 75 inch TV, so even though a third of my right lung was removed and the pain was incredible at first, I will always remember that view of the heliport, fancy river front restaurant, the boats..........like a vacation room. Being treated so well helped me heal, it certainly wasn't my doing.
Today I will zoom talk with therapist, again about AccessARide. She doesn't know what happened, that I was assaulted! These sessions don't help, the reality is too hard to bear. I'm stuck. But I'm glad I have Covid. I need distance from that awful event.