I went to see my palliative care doc. Palliative care is for people who are not dying, too. Anyhow, I told her about this strange thing that has been going on for several months. It's called musical tinnitus or musical ear syndrome. A lot of the people who get it are very hard of hearing, but don't use hearing aids.
Well, I have it too, and the doc said she wonders if it is a side effect of chemo. I do too, because now that I know what it's called, I remembered that for many months I had regular tinnitus, which was from chemo side effects.
I hear music in my head. It is in the background, and is at a very low volume. Sometimes someone is singing, and I can't make out the words, but I can hear the instruments. Sometimes I can hear the singing, too. Sometimes it is just instrumental. 99% of the time I cannot recall ever having heard the song, with one exception - the other night's playlist was Christmas songs.
The songs don't last long -- maybe a minute at most -- and then another song kind of blends in and takes over. It can last for hours. I can do anything I want to during it because it does not disturb my concentration. Weirdly, after some intense internet searching, I realized that some of the songs do not exist.
Like yesterday, I heard men singing a song about a sunny day in San Francisco. I have not heard the song and could not find any songs like this on the internet.
When I see my oncologist next month, I am going to ask her about whether it could be (or is) a side effect of chemo.
I also made a pot of chili last night. I tried really hard not to make enough to feed an army and ended up with 4 meals for 2 people. I froze 2 containers for another day.