Will you stay in your home as long as you can?

mellowyellow

Well-known Member
I know some very independent people who will fight tooth and nail to stay in their own home for as long as possible. Our government supports it too and there's a lot of help available including house cleaning, meals on wheels, lawn mowing, even showering etc. Would you rather go into a facility and socialise with others or stay put?
 

Without question my own home so long as I still have my wits, mobility and health about me.

As much as I would love to see a along life, if ever I get to the point of having to sit in a highchair with a bib on and be fed and changed, then it's time for me to depart.

As for all of the horror stories about "for profit" care homes, absolutely sickening!
 
My older (91) sister moved into a care home at the end of last year angry with the world. She didn’t want to leave her home and kept saying she didn’t want to be here anymore over and over again. She has painful arthritis but gets around quite well with a walking frame. From sitting alone in her house day in and day out, never seeing a soul, she has found 3 bridge partners and plays twice a week and her attitude has completely changed. You can hear it in her voice. Now she dresses up every day instead of sitting around in track pants with no make-up. It made me wonder.
 
If I were to go into one of those facilities, it would be imperative that the place be fully soundproofed, so that my farts couldn't be heard and I wouldn't hear anyone elses. I always carry a peg in my pocket. :)
 
My mother made it in a 3 story house almost to 100 years old (3 months shy). She's been in a care facility since last Aug. and hates it. It's a decent place and they care for her well but with Covid and all, she's completely isolated to the outside world. No visitors and no outings. Hopefully that will improve as the vaccines make an appearance! Food in these places is always an issue too. They gotta cook stuff that's bland in taste with the texture of mush so you can "gum it".

I don't think any of us have a real choice in how our old age will work out. Health, both physical & mental, will determine that for us. I know I'm gonna do all I can in my upcoming retirement years to remain active and adventurous as long as I can. What happens after that .... who knows. The issue is your mind doesn't grow old as your body does, unless you develop dementia/Alzheimer's. I've seen that in an Uncle and I know I don't want that kind of ending!
 
As much as I would love to see a along life, if ever I get to the point of having to sit in a highchair with a bib on and be fed and changed, then it's time for me to depart.
Remember that story of the old Inuit woman who could no longer use her teeth to stretch the skins and how she walked away from the village, sat in the snow and went to sleep? Sounds like a great way to go

After a visit with Dad in the care home;

What have we done to think it good to keep my hero existing in his filth with confounded thoughts for as long as medically possible……



The Inuits and Aleuts have it right

Long walk

Bonk on the bean


It’s much more heroic……respectful.
 
Sorry about your hero
He was a gamer

I've posted this here at least once

But

Here it is again (heh, seems even more pertinent now);


A few years ago a lad from Scotland, I’d gotten to know, asked me how my Dad was doing, as I’d shared with him my Dad’s failings in what turned out to be his final year.


Maybe some of you folks can identify with what I wrote him.


In any event, I feel compelled to put it here, and probably in my next book.


You see, my Dad was my hero.


Oh, I wasn’t his favorite, but that didn’t matter.


For many years he was God to me, could do no wrong, I hid my wrongs from him.


Sure, as I grew, I saw his faults, but, heh, they were few.


And mine became less as I used him as a life model.






Here’s what I Emailed;










He’s a gamer, Shaun.


Days ago he was on his death bed.


Chemo and infection was taking him down…..quick.


He’s on the rebound.


To where……. I have no idea.






I visited him last weekend while he was staying at the rehab center (nursing home).


Didn’t readily recognize him.


No hair


Tiny head


Sunken eyes


Chair stickin’ half way outta the room, lookin’ out into the hall.


He looks like wunna those children with an aging disease.


He really lit up when he saw me.


I immediately felt real bad for not coming sooner.


He got up and scooted his chair back into the room, shuffling, pushing.


He invited me to sit.


There was only one extra chair


I think it had a piece of shit on it.


He had some sorta string of dried drool and blood comin’ from his lower lip, ending at his chin.


It made me sick to my stomach to look at him.


My Dad


My finicky Dad


The guy that remained well scrubbed, no matter what he did.


The guy with the weakest of stomachs.


The guy that just couldn’t eat if he thought the cook hadn’t washed his hands.


There he was……..disgusting


and so very happy to see me.


I wanted to stay and leave at the same time.


We went on a conversation loop.


He has about ten minutes of thought processing, then it starts all over again.


I grabbed his attention by saying I was thinking about going to church.


He did a feeble punch into the air, and displayed a flash of his tenacious old self, gritting his teeth and smiling with delight.


His old eyes lit up again, then welled, spilling tears as he told me how happy that made him.


Now I was disgusted with myself.


I wanted to cry along with him. I just can’t. It’s not in me.


I hadn’t lied.


I do think about it.


I think about conversation with rabid religionaires, and know why none of it is for me.


It was a visit of diverse emotions.


The nurse’s aide came in.


He questioningly introduced me as his cousin.


Well, in twenty minutes I’d completely muddled what’s left of his blithering mind.


I gave him a slight hug and left him with the aide.


Driving home, my thoughts were fixed on him.


What he is


What he once was


What I am


What I’m going to become


I recalled him and his cousin, his brother he never had, and how they talked about their aged parents


There is no fairness


There is just fact


Inescapable inevitable fact


It made me realize my own fallibility


I really don’t want to see him again


I will though


As long as I can make him happy, whether it’s a veiled lie, or just being there, I will see him, hug him, chat with him.


He has earned that…at the very least.


He’s a withered dying old man.


Cancer will take him.


I don’t think I have the guts for this, and what’s next, deteriorating visits


What have we done to think it good to keep my hero existing in his filth with confounded thoughts for as long as medically possible……






The Aleuts know what to do


The long walk and the bonk on the bean.


It’s much more heroic……respectful.






Thanks for asking, kid.






Enjoy thy youth
 
I'd rather be in some friendly apt. complex where there were some people around to actually talk to and within walking distance of at least a food store since I don't trust my driving much anymore. But, Huzz says nope, he's gonna have to be carried feet-first outa here so here we stay & here come the auto accidents most likely.
 
There is a difference between the independent living places and nursing homes. My father moved into an upscale independent living place after my mother died. He did not really want to but he was blind and falling down a lot, plus their house had stairs he couldn't manage anymore. A year later, he told me it was the best decision he ever made. They had activities and he made friends and they had a really nice dining room. I am sure he was eating better there since he couldn't cook. I have a lot of friends around here who have moved into similar places and liked it. However, I wonder how they are with Covid. I know a couple of years ago when the flu was bad, they stopped the activities in the one my friends live in and even delivered their meals to their rooms.

I guess I will try to stay in our house as long as possible. I couldn't afford the kind my dad and my friends live in.
 
He was a gamer

I've posted this here at least once

But

Here it is again (heh, seems even more pertinent now);


A few years ago a lad from Scotland, I’d gotten to know, asked me how my Dad was doing, as I’d shared with him my Dad’s failings in what turned out to be his final year.


Maybe some of you folks can identify with what I wrote him.


In any event, I feel compelled to put it here, and probably in my next book.


You see, my Dad was my hero.


Oh, I wasn’t his favorite, but that didn’t matter.


For many years he was God to me, could do no wrong, I hid my wrongs from him.


Sure, as I grew, I saw his faults, but, heh, they were few.


And mine became less as I used him as a life model.






Here’s what I Emailed;










He’s a gamer, Shaun.


Days ago he was on his death bed.


Chemo and infection was taking him down…..quick.


He’s on the rebound.


To where……. I have no idea.






I visited him last weekend while he was staying at the rehab center (nursing home).


Didn’t readily recognize him.


No hair


Tiny head


Sunken eyes


Chair stickin’ half way outta the room, lookin’ out into the hall.


He looks like wunna those children with an aging disease.


He really lit up when he saw me.


I immediately felt real bad for not coming sooner.


He got up and scooted his chair back into the room, shuffling, pushing.


He invited me to sit.


There was only one extra chair


I think it had a piece of shit on it.


He had some sorta string of dried drool and blood comin’ from his lower lip, ending at his chin.


It made me sick to my stomach to look at him.


My Dad


My finicky Dad


The guy that remained well scrubbed, no matter what he did.


The guy with the weakest of stomachs.


The guy that just couldn’t eat if he thought the cook hadn’t washed his hands.


There he was……..disgusting


and so very happy to see me.


I wanted to stay and leave at the same time.


We went on a conversation loop.


He has about ten minutes of thought processing, then it starts all over again.


I grabbed his attention by saying I was thinking about going to church.


He did a feeble punch into the air, and displayed a flash of his tenacious old self, gritting his teeth and smiling with delight.


His old eyes lit up again, then welled, spilling tears as he told me how happy that made him.


Now I was disgusted with myself.


I wanted to cry along with him. I just can’t. It’s not in me.


I hadn’t lied.


I do think about it.


I think about conversation with rabid religionaires, and know why none of it is for me.


It was a visit of diverse emotions.


The nurse’s aide came in.


He questioningly introduced me as his cousin.


Well, in twenty minutes I’d completely muddled what’s left of his blithering mind.


I gave him a slight hug and left him with the aide.


Driving home, my thoughts were fixed on him.


What he is


What he once was


What I am


What I’m going to become


I recalled him and his cousin, his brother he never had, and how they talked about their aged parents


There is no fairness


There is just fact


Inescapable inevitable fact


It made me realize my own fallibility


I really don’t want to see him again


I will though


As long as I can make him happy, whether it’s a veiled lie, or just being there, I will see him, hug him, chat with him.


He has earned that…at the very least.


He’s a withered dying old man.


Cancer will take him.


I don’t think I have the guts for this, and what’s next, deteriorating visits


What have we done to think it good to keep my hero existing in his filth with confounded thoughts for as long as medically possible……






The Aleuts know what to do


The long walk and the bonk on the bean.


It’s much more heroic……respectful.






Thanks for asking, kid.






Enjoy thy youth
It’s a hard thing to watch. My hero Dad died of cancer also. A sheer skeleton of the man he once was. He was only 64, so way to young in my opinion.

But I’ve often thought of him and my Mom too. I’m thankful they didn’t live long enough to go thru all of the awfulness of old age. I think, for me, that would have been harder to watch. They both died at home, with all of us at their sides, and dignity still in tact.
I have an inordinate fear of growing to that really old old age. Anytime now would be ok with me...and I can only pray that God is in agreement
 
I know I mentally thought that I could stay in my house til the end of time, but came to realize it just wasn't feasible to own a house and maintain it all on my own. Way too much responsibility, and it was getting out of my control. It's hard to face the facts sometimes.

My grown kids helped, but they understood my challenges of home ownership, and were all in when I decided to sell it and move to an apartment.
It was all a much smoother transition than I thought it would be.

But yes, to answer the original question, I did stay as long as I could. That's only natural I think.
 
Another thing to keep in mind: once you hit the elder years, the less you should own that might require expensive, complicated, hard-to-find, hard-to-arrange repair or upkeep (i.e., refrigerator, stove, roof). Because if there's any person who unscrupulous repair people take more advantage of than the elderly, espec. elderly women with no kids to help, I don't know who it'd be. Admittedly, you can run into problems with landlords too; but luckily some states like mine have good laws protecting renters (except in mobile home parks; those guys bought themselves some good lobbyists).
 
Another thing to keep in mind: once you hit the elder years, the less you should own that might require expensive, complicated, hard-to-find, hard-to-arrange repair or upkeep (i.e., refrigerator, stove, roof). Because if there's any person who unscrupulous repair people take more advantage of than the elderly, espec. elderly women with no kids to help, I don't know who it'd be. Admittedly, you can run into problems with landlords too; but luckily some states like mine have good laws protecting renters (except in mobile home parks; those guys bought themselves some good lobbyists).
Unfortunately true. We have a friend in her late 80's with no kids and she has been taken advantage of with repairs (roof, plumbing).
 


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