@pip48 Here is my opinion which you are free to take or leave. Yell at me if you disagree. I’m ok with that cause I really want you to engage. I am so glad you’ve shared you feelings. We all will help you if you let us.
You are truly depressed, not situationally depressed but actual mental illness type depression, IMO, which simply means you need help to get over it. I am not therapist but, like many on here, I have been in therapy. I have been depressed to the point of wanting to die.
When I read that you cannot shower, clean, cook, do the basis to take care of yourself, it is apparent are in trouble and need help or certainly more help than you are getting right now, which seems to be none. I am extremely worried about you. You should think of getting therapy or tell your favorite child that you are struggling.
But I have another suggestion. Make a list, Yup. A list of what you NEED to do. Shower, number one on the list. That’s first. That’s all. Take a pad and make several pieces of paper with the word shower on them. Post them on the bathroom door, frig door, bedroom door, next to the tv, etc. just the word shower. In other words, like a nagging wife or friends, nag yourself to shower until you are showering every dang day.
Sounds silly, it tends to work. Once you are showering you will feel better. Then chose the next thing you can not do. Make a list Shower first, maybe clean undies next. Whatever you choose. And whatever it takes to do the second thing put it one the list. Like to have clean underwear you have to do the laundry. So shower, laundry, clean under wear. Posties all over the house. Nag, nag, nag yourself.
We also have no friends where we live and now that it’s winter we are shut in. I am on here everyday, talking to people as you should be. Talk to us, start threads about what you are interested in. We are all isolated to a certain extent.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE. WE ARE HERE.