Message from Frank

Come on you don't have 3 cartons do you? I will admit that I had about 2 packs left in a carton.
I had a CT of the chest as my insurance started covering as preventative care. It showed the signs of the beggining of emphysema. I cried for a couple of days as I smoked those last two packs. I told myself, when they are gone, I am done. Again, did not think I could do it. I have never bought anymore, I have never bummed one. I know if I light another cigarette, I will have a miserable life and a tragic end. It is time, it is time!!
Yes. I buy a month's worth at a time.

My problem is, I thoroughly enjoy smoking. Best 3 minutes of my day is when I kick back with a cigarette and a cup of tea, some music in the background, or a short video on youtube, maybe playing a game of solitaire. I love those moments.

So, maybe it's not time. But maybe that time is coming.
 
Wow. I just saw this and read the whole thing through in a rush. Whew.

So glad you're back at home, Frank, and that they know what caused it and what to do about it. I just wish you hadn't had to go through so much horrific pain and anxiety.

One bright spot, I 'm glad we all got to meet Michele. What a fine lady, I loved what she wrote about being ready to be your nurse anytime. It was a lucky day for both of you, when she spotted you at the mailbox and took you in hand!:D
 

I just read Michelle's messages and am grateful that Frank @Murrmurr is doing better! I was praying also, as I read the responses. He is such a good guy, and one of the best people I/we have met here on SF! Including you, Michelle!!

Frank has to be careful, though. You mentioned he's had this before. Stopping smoking was the first thing that came to my mind for him to do, as others mentioned here.

I would also get a second opinion on Frank's tumor and make sure they check his WHOLE body (so no surprises later on). This is the time to ask questions like -
Will it come back again once it's removed?
What caused the tumor?
How long does it take a tumor like that to grow that size?
Why was it located there and not somewhere else?
Was this a primary tumor or a secondary tumor (caused by another tumor).

These are my thoughts! Good luck and God bless!
The multiple problems with my spine are caused by a 60-foot fall that happened 30 years ago, and a few unintentional side effects of the surgery and pharmaceutical treatments immediately afterward.

But if not for those I might still be in a wheelchair, so I'm not resentful or angry. It's just a lot to contend with.
 
Yes. I buy a month's worth at a time.

My problem is, I thoroughly enjoy smoking. Best 3 minutes of my day is when I kick back with a cigarette and a cup of tea, some music in the background, or a short video on youtube, maybe playing a game of solitaire. I love those moments.

So, maybe it's not time. But maybe that time is coming.
I really enjoyed smoking too! I would still be enjoying it if I had not a had a wake up call after that scan. I finally got that there were bad, very bad things that were happening because of smoking. I would go right back to it if that was not the case. I also realized it was not just a habit, I was an addict, did not think I would be me with out smoking. I am still me without smoking. Know I don't have to miss out on anything because I don't have to leave to go smoke. I just don't want you to risk your health or cause heartbreak for those who love you.

I say it again, it is time, it is time. Can you plan at least when those cartons are gone, to give it a try. I did use nicotine lozenges to get thru the first part.
 
Wow. I just saw this and read the whole thing through in a rush. Whew.

So glad you're back at home, Frank, and that they know what caused it and what to do about it. I just wish you hadn't had to go through so much horrific pain and anxiety.

One bright spot, I 'm glad we all got to meet Michele. What a fine lady, I loved what she wrote about being ready to be your nurse anytime. It was a lucky day for both of you, when she spotted you at the mailbox and took you in hand!:D
Oh man, it was the worst pain I've ever had, I think. My right leg and foot felt like they were literally on fire. Literally! And that's how it felt even after both legs went completely numb, which is so weird, but it reminded me of amputees who swear they can still sometimes feel a limb that isn't there anymore.

And, yes! That slap on the butt at the mailbox was the best thing that ever happened to me.
 
My problem is, I thoroughly enjoy smoking. Best 3 minutes of my day is when I kick back with a cigarette and a cup of tea, some music in the background, or a short video on youtube, maybe playing a game of solitaire. I love those moments.

So, maybe it's not time. But maybe that time is coming.
I totally understand that one.
Up at the cabin, my cherished moments was roll one, and watch ol' sol rise...while sipping a cup of hot java.

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Then, roll one after a meal.


Then, roll one to enhance the scene of oncoming twilight

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Pretty much a religious experience.

Three or four a day seems not too detrimental (but not my call)

Now, my lady, she'd huff one down and torch up another
Went thru about three packs a day.
Quit when they got to $2/pack
I think her words were 'Oh, hell no!'
Cold turkey
Slept three days
Never had another.
That was decades ago.
 
My problem is, I thoroughly enjoy
Seriously, you need to find something else, to sub right into that same scene that you enjoy so much, Frank. And add another reward for yourself, while you get accustomed to the substitution.
Just my suggestion, in case it helps. It would be the greatest thing you could accomplish or do, for Michelle, and for your children, grandchildren, and for Paxton, as well.
 
I too loved to smoke. I especially enjoyed coffee and cigarettes and drinks and cigarettes. One Friday in June, 2008 I went to see a cardiologist who told me I needed open-heart surgery.I needed a mitral valve repair. He just looked at me and said you know you need to quit smoking. I said of course...and I went home and smoked that weekend and quit Monday morning. Cigarettes were my best friend..always there when I needed or wanted them :D The surgery helped me decide to give them up one last time..I had quit several times before. It is such a personal decision .. no amount of nagging or pleading from anyone helped me..I had to finally decide once and for all. One thing that really helped me was Nicorette gum..I could still get the 'high' without all the rest of the paraphernalia...Good luck to anyone who is trying or will try. It's tough but doable..
 
I am glad you are home and feeling better. I hope you will take it to heart to not to hesitate to call 911 even if you only need help getting off of the floor. I would call and say, it is not an emergency, I just need someone to help me get a person off the floor. They would even come silent so as not to disturb the neighborhood. They will check your vitals and make sure there is no concern, just a simple fall.

So now quit smoking, you need to be here for your bride your children, grandchildren and the little boy that adores you!!
I have had to call 911 also when I have fallen. They will come, put me in my chair and check vitals. I also ask them to come silent as it always happens in the middle of the night. So glad you are home!!
 
I have had to call 911 also when I have fallen. They will come, put me in my chair and check vitals. I also ask them to come silent as it always happens in the middle of the night. So glad you are home!!
I just stay put till it goes away. The leg paralysis, I mean. Usually after about 15-20 minutes, I can get up practically like nothing happened. Just a bit sore for a while.
 

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