Reflections of My Life

I like single beds best of all. Single or twin they are sometimes called. I wish I didn't need an adjustable one but think it would be easier than piling a bunch of pillows and wedge under me. I can never get it just right.

I figure if someone sees I have a single bed..........they know there is no room for them! :)
 

I managed to write my last blog post of the year. I am determined to write it more often in the coming year. I do not make money on it now but have readers who come to it. So need to keep it going and try to work on my niche.....single senior woman living alone.....with a house rabbit. Sometimes it is hard to write a topic that I think other women would want to read. I am not exactly like others in many ways.

I think most women do like and want to be with someone. I enjoy the company of others, men included, but I just don't want to live with anyone. Believe me Rabbit is more than enough! When I think back to my past life I was never happy living with anyone. At first I am. But after you settle in to living together for a period of time and the newness wears off it is no picnic. At least for me it wasn't.

I had more good times and moments with my last husband than the other two (one a gambler and the other an alcoholic). I would not have left him if he had been more responsible with money. There were times I would be so depressed over the thought that our house would be foreclosed on and we would be homeless with 3 horses. Never had a budget so he would get his check and he would run to the store and get a bag of groceries. That didn't last long. He ate a lot (and was very thin). l created meals out of my pantry and he would wonder how I did it. Well I hid food from him!

Sometimes I would think about all that debt he had, personal loans, credit cards and 2 vehicle payments and I imagined what that payment amount would buy at the grocery store. The day he bought his truck I did not go with him. He replaced our Dodge Dakota truck with a Nissan Titan and it doubled the payment and the insurance amount. I was sick over that and to top it off I could not drive it because I could barely see over the steering wheel. I was not comfortable the one time i had to drive it.
 
New Year's Day is a holiday I like. Not because it is a holiday, but because it is the start of the new year. A new year to make better than the last one. A new year to begin doing (or stop doing) certain things. To concentrate on what I need to do to improve my life. Since I enjoy writing, I make lists daily, I write in a journal, I keep track. To get rid of whatever I don't need or want, including bad habits.

I try to keep it on a positive note. When I think positive about something then I like doing it. It was a year ago that I started reading the Bible and praying every morning before having my first cup of coffee. Now it is a firmly established habit.

Last year at the same time is when I started walking daily around the hallway of my floor. Because I was doing it with a friend, I didn't stick to it when she didn't want to do it anymore. One reason I think I stopped wasn't because she stopped but because I did not keep doing it anyway. When I do an activity with someone else I feel pressure about being ready at the time she will come to my door. So I want to do it again but alone. I do everything better when I do it alone.
 
katlupe said:
I like single beds best of all. Single or twin they are sometimes called. I wish I didn't need an adjustable one but think it would be easier than piling a bunch of pillows and wedge under me. I can never get it just right.

I figure if someone sees I have a single bed..........they know there is no room for them! :)
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You will love the adjustable bed. When I am sick I can’t sleep laying down because of my asthma. I used to prop myself up but would always fall to the side once I actually fell asleep. It was impossible to sleep propped up by pillows. Now I just raise the head of my bed.
 
katlupe said:
New Year's Day is a holiday I like. Not because it is a holiday, but because it is the start of the new year. A new year to make better than the last one. A new year to begin doing (or stop doing) certain things. To concentrate on what I need to do to improve my life. Since I enjoy writing, I make lists daily, I write in a journal, I keep track. To get rid of whatever I don't need or want, including bad habits.

I try to keep it on a positive note. When I think positive about something then I like doing it. It was a year ago that I started reading the Bible and praying every morning before having my first cup of coffee. Now it is a firmly established habit.

Last year at the same time is when I started walking daily around the hallway of my floor. Because I was doing it with a friend, I didn't stick to it when she didn't want to do it anymore. One reason I think I stopped wasn't because she stopped but because I did not keep doing it anyway. When I do an activity with someone else I feel pressure about being ready at the time she will come to my door. So I want to do it again but alone. I do everything better when I do it alone.
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Happy New Year, @katlupe! Hope you have a beautiful day and rest of the year!
 
This morning I wake up and immediately start worrying. The reason is that tomorrow is the day my son's money comes and Sonny cannot take me to do our errands. He will be in the hospital getting a shoulder replacement. So I am on my own again. I did okay the other time I had to do it but this time it is January and I have to worry about waking up to snow. I am hoping we don't get any!

So my plan is to ride "Jazzy" to the post office and get money orders for Jeff's and my rents. Jeff's I have to fill out there and put in the mail. I will do that but reminding myself to bring something I can hold on my lap to write it out on. Last time, I had to struggle to hold onto one of those tall desks and write at the same time.

Then I have to go to the bank that is not far from my apartment and use their ATM machine. It will be okay if it is not snowing. But if it is I will have to stand out in the snow to use it. They do not have one inside or even close to the building. Drive up only. Another reason for praying for no snow or rain tomorrow. Snow would be easier to do all this in than rain. I shall figure it out somehow.
 
katlupe said:
This morning I wake up and immediately start worrying. The reason is that tomorrow is the day my son's money comes and Sonny cannot take me to do our errands. He will be in the hospital getting a shoulder replacement. So I am on my own again. I did okay the other time I had to do it but this time it is January and I have to worry about waking up to snow. I am hoping we don't get any!

So my plan is to ride "Jazzy" to the post office and get money orders for Jeff's and my rents. Jeff's I have to fill out there and put in the mail. I will do that but reminding myself to bring something I can hold on my lap to write it out on. Last time, I had to struggle to hold onto one of those tall desks and write at the same time.

Then I have to go to the bank that is not far from my apartment and use their ATM machine. It will be okay if it is not snowing. But if it is I will have to stand out in the snow to use it. They do not have one inside or even close to the building. Drive up only. Another reason for praying for no snow or rain tomorrow. Snow would be easier to do all this in than rain. I shall figure it out somehow.
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Tomorrow morning Sonny has to be at the hospital at 6:45 AM. So I won't be talking to him tomorrow I am sure. Depends on his condition when he wakes up.

I will be up early and as soon as my son's money goes into his account I will be able to go to the post office to get the money orders for the rents. I am pretty sure I can drive Jazzy unless it does snow, which it isn't supposed to. At least not till later.

Then Friday, my friend and I are taking the bus to Walmart again. I was thinking about doing that and then she called me this afternoon and asked me if I wanted to go with her. I do.
 
katlupe said:
Tomorrow morning Sonny has to be at the hospital at 6:45 AM. So I won't be talking to him tomorrow I am sure. Depends on his condition when he wakes up.

I will be up early and as soon as my son's money goes into his account I will be able to go to the post office to get the money orders for the rents. I am pretty sure I can drive Jazzy unless it does snow, which it isn't supposed to. At least not till later.

Then Friday, my friend and I are taking the bus to Walmart again. I was thinking about doing that and then she called me this afternoon and asked me if I wanted to go with her. I do.
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what happens when you get on a bus, Kat..do you walk and push jazzy or can you ride on ?
 
Sonny is having his shoulder replacement surgery right now. This is the video he posted on his fakebook page. He said after watching this video he felt more confident about this operation. Hope it all goes well for him. He is looking forward to racing season.

 
Sliverfox said:
Hope Sonny has good luck with shoulder replacement.
He should do the thraphy when doctor oks it.

Hubby had steel road & ball joint for his shoulder replacement, several years ago.
Was told to take care of it as they are good for 10 years.
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He plans on doing the therapy. He is a good patient doing everything the doctors tell him to do......well with the exception of his diet and exercise.
 
I am back home and Jeff came here as soon as I called him to pick up his cash. It was cold, about 32 degrees. Driving Jazzy in the cold is not too bad as long as I am dressed warm. Had my gloves and hat on. I am pleased with myself to be able to accomplish my errands today without needing help from anyone.

Now I am thinking the other hard errand is to get to the smoke shop next to Price Chopper where I get my son's bags of tobacco. Yes, he smokes. Yes, I hate it. I know I should not be one the buying it (with his money) for him. Otherwise, he would spend a fortune on it at the little store next to his apartment. He would go without buying any food for that nasty habit and he even saw his grandmother (not my mother but his father's mother) die within a month of being diagnosed with lung cancer.

I might try taking the bus to Price Chopper so I can go to the smoke shop and buy his tobacco. The bus goes right to Price Chopper so that would work. Instead of using Instacart for Price Chopper that time. He doesn't need it right now since I do have a bag of it in my closet.

When I drove by the coffee shop it smelled so good that I came home and made more coffee. Having maple bourbon pecan sugar-free coffee right now.....so good!
 
Well the wedding planned for February in our community room has been cancelled. Not due to their relationship but due to the financial aspect of it. Subsidized housing, SNAP, Medicaid, HEAP......all make staying single the better choice. If you tie the knot legally, then all those things are cut instead of increased.

I still have not heard from Sonny so don't know how his operation has gone. I am hoping for the best.
 
Just thought I would tell you all that Sonny's operation was cancelled! They had his IV in and marked the spot to cut. Then the doctor looked again at it and wanted to talk to his heart doctor. He was afraid about cutting into him due to the position of his pacemaker. Wouldn't you know it??????? Could not get a hold of the heart doctor. So Sonny came home.
 
katlupe said:
Just thought I would tell you all that Sonny's operation was cancelled! They had his IV in and marked the spot to cut. Then the doctor looked again at it and wanted to talk to his heart doctor. He was afraid about cutting into him due to the position of his pacemaker. Wouldn't you know it??????? Could not get a hold of the heart doctor. So Sonny came home.
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Maybe that happened because of Sonny having Dextrocardia and it confused the doctor. Not all medical people come across this in their patients.
 
I think it has been good for me learning how to take the bus to Walmart. Between the bus and store deliveries I can easily live without a car. Cheaper too!

I can see how much money eating low carbs saves me. I knew I had to fit everything I bought in 2 shopping bags only. I like self-check mainly because I can pack my own bags. But today since I was with my friend and she likes to use the regular check out (so much slower and we had to wait in a line) I hurried to get my payment done and started packing my biggest bag before the clerk did it. I have always liked to put all the meat together, all the frozen (vegetables) stuff together and all the dairy together. When other people pack for me they do it all wrong. No order.

Next time I will fasten my walker to the wall of the bus with a bungee cord so it doesn't roll all over the bus. We had our 2 walkers and the other passengers' 2 large shopping carts rolling back and forth across the back of the bus. Not happening next time. At least not with my walker.

I talked to Sonny today and he is sick again. Every time he has to go into the hospital he is sick when he comes home. He slept all day yesterday and probably all day today too. I keep telling him that is why I don't go into one even to visit someone or wait with anyone. I think there is more chances of getting something there than anywhere else.
 
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katlupe said:
I think it has been good for me learning how to take the bus to Walmart. Between the bus and store deliveries I can easily live without a car. Cheaper too!

I can see how much money eating low carbs saves me. I knew I had to fit everything I bought in 2 shopping bags only. I like self-check mainly because I can pack my own bags. But today since I was with my friend and she likes to use the regular check out (so much slower and we had to wait in a line) I hurried to get my payment done and started packing my biggest bag before the clerk did it. I have always liked to put all the meat together, all the frozen (vegetables) stuff together and all the dairy together. When other people pack for me they do it all wrong. No order.

Next time I will fasten my walker to the wall of the bus with a bungee cord so it doesn't roll all over the bus. We had our 2 walkers and the other passengers' 2 large shopping carts rolling back and forth across the back of the bus. Not happening next time. At least not with my walker.

I talked to Sonny today and he is sick again. Every time he has to go into the hospital he is sick when he comes home. He slept all day yesterday and probably all day today too. I keep telling him that is why I don't go into one even to visit someone or wait with anyone. I think there is more chances of getting something there than anywhere else.
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Thanks for sharing everything - your trip, the shopping, the bus, and Sonny's condition. I feel for Sonny also. I just got over a bad cold and also slept a lot. Hopefully, he'll feel better soon. Stay warm. We're expecting snow tomorrow and I understand it's also headed your way.
 
It was 19 degrees when I woke up this morning. I expect to be working in my kitchen a good part of the morning. When I buy ground beef I vacuum pack it into smaller portions. About 12 oz. each. The Italian hot sausage I vacuum pack in packages of 2 sausages each. The ground breakfast sausage I make into patties and partially cook them. Then let them cool and freeze in one big zip loc freezer bag with wax paper between each one.

When I shop I mostly buy meat, dairy and vegetables. Some canned items like tomato paste or Rotel diced tomatoes, asparagus, mushrooms and broths. Yesterday I didn't get the canned items since I can have them delivered and I was limited to 2 shopping bags. I didn't really need them though since I bought a lot of groceries the last time Sonny took me shopping.

I find the change in my shopping took place over time. The first being having to bring your own bags to the stores. I limited myself most of the time to 4 bags but like yesterday, only 2. I like to bring in my groceries on my walker to my apartment. Depending on what I buy, I can pack the bags at the store with that in mind. To put 2 bags with heavy things like the meat packages on the bottom (directly on the seat of the walker). And 2 lighter bags on top of those.

I always shop from a list and it is rare that I buy something not on my list. Downstairs we have a room that has grocery shopping carts like the ones you use in the stores. When you pull up you have to go in the building to get one and bring it to your car. Fill it up then take it to your apartment and empty it and then take it back downstairs. Too much work for me after shopping. So easier to do it this way.
 

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