I was giving a talk to some high school students during “career day” years ago at a high school when we came to the time for questions. A young man in the back of the auditorium asked what’s the difference between when a culprit shoots someone or if I shoot someone.
I told him when the culprit shoots someone they walk away and maybe even look for someone else to shoot. When I shoot someone, which has only happened twice as a Trooper, I feel guilt, sadness and even some malaise. I run the events of the incident through my mind over and over again and I keep asking myself. “Could I have done something differently?”
When I was in Vietnam, the emotions were different. I wanted to kill everyone that came into my sights because I knew that was the only way I was going to get to go home. I didn’t want to go home like the soldiers you see on TV without limbs.
I told him when the culprit shoots someone they walk away and maybe even look for someone else to shoot. When I shoot someone, which has only happened twice as a Trooper, I feel guilt, sadness and even some malaise. I run the events of the incident through my mind over and over again and I keep asking myself. “Could I have done something differently?”
When I was in Vietnam, the emotions were different. I wanted to kill everyone that came into my sights because I knew that was the only way I was going to get to go home. I didn’t want to go home like the soldiers you see on TV without limbs.