So then, Lara, why do you have this need to keep repeating your belief in all this nonsense, over and over, on this forum? Clearly, you haven't convinced anyone. If I believed in the kind of deity you believe in, and "knew" what that deity is doing, has done, how he/she/it feels about me, and felt secure that I had the ultimate truth of the universe in my brain, because somebody wrote it in a book thousands of years ago... well, I'd be quiet and content with that knowledge.
It's beginning to sound to me like you are trying very hard to convince yourself. ("Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain," the man in this case being the voice of rational truth?)
"I'm a Bible believer?" Really? Including chopping off hands of thieves, executing those who violate the rules of the Sabbath, not eating pork or shellfish, not mixing certain materials in your clothing, saying that honoring your father and mother (no matter what they do) is on the same level as telling people not to kill, the earth is a little over 5,000 years old no matter what science tells us, following one's sexual proclivities or thinking for oneself are punishable offenses.... that Bible?