My son died unexpectedly Jan. 2022 and because of too high funeral costs, my two daughters and I could only afford cremation for him. This was so antithetical to me that I can not even bear to see his urn 'box'. My older daughter has it in her apartment.
I 'birthed' the 'vessel' he had resided in. It held his God given life. Fed it, washed it, made it comfortable, hugged it, cared and loved it as best I knew how. To have it reduced to mostly tiny bits of bones resembling ash through exposure to flame and intense heat followed by pulverization of bone fragments" tormented me.
I wish I could have had him have an Earth Funeral.