Feeling Low Tonight

officerripley

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Today is the 1 year anniversary of my brother's death (heart trouble). And we actually found out a few days ago that the rare cancer my huzz's beloved younger brother has now has manifested itself (the first tumor has shown up). This doesn't get any easier as one ages, does it? I've never ever felt this tired before.
 

Officerripley. I apologize that I missed on my timing in replying to you in this thread. I am very sorry to hear you are struggling with the loss and recent diagnosis of your husbands brother.

I find words do nothing for me, nor does silence, but knowing other have been through such, and knowing others care, has always provided me with the most comfort of all.

My adage (for years) has been... "one day at a time", and do the best you can to live one day at a time. Don't even plan for tomorrow, just live for today, do the best you can, and go to bed with it in your mind that tomorrow will be a better day.

Death and seeing people suffer as a result of illness never get's easy, and time doesn't heal either IMO. What time does is it simply teaches us how to live with the pain, that's where my adage "one day at a time" comes into play.

You are in my thoughts.
 
Officerripley. I apologize that I missed on my timing in replying to you in this thread. I am very sorry to hear you are struggling with the loss and recent diagnosis of your husbands brother.

I find words do nothing for me, nor does silence, but knowing other have been through such, and knowing others care, has always provided me with the most comfort of all.

My adage (for years) has been... "one day at a time", and do the best you can to live one day at a time. Don't even plan for tomorrow, just live for today, do the best you can, and go to bed with it in your mind that tomorrow will be a better day.

Death and seeing people suffer as a result of illness never get's easy, and time doesn't heal either IMO. What time does is it simply teaches us how to live with the pain, that's where my adage "one day at a time" come into play.

You are in my thoughts.
Thank you so much.
 
So very sorry for your troubles. I was just having a conversation about this with my sister in law who is 5 years older than me and it was agreed that it doesn't get any easier so we live day by day, sometimes easier said than done.
I remember my mom saying the same thing.
I suppose it's been like that through the ages.
It is tiring and my thoughts are with you during this trying time.
 
So very sorry for your troubles. I was just having a conversation about this with my sister in law who is 5 years older than me and it was agreed that it doesn't get any easier so we live day by day, sometimes easier said than done.
I remember my mom saying the same thing.
I suppose it's been like that through the ages.
It is tiring and my thoughts are with you during this trying time.
Thank you, Ruth and everyone. It's so sad and even more "frosting on the cake": BIL was planning to work at least 7 more years since then he and his wife would both be old enough for Medi-Care because when he retires, if he wanted to keep the health ins. his employer provides, it would've cost about $2,000 a month. But the way the doctors are talking, he doesn't have anywhere near 7 more years. And his wife is 5 years too young to get survivors benefits from his Social Security. And forget about Medic-Aid (or any kind of welfare, I think): they own a small house. So we're hoping his retirement will be enough for her to live on; but it's so worrisome in addition to being heartbreaking.
 
Thank you, Ruth and everyone. It's so sad and even more "frosting on the cake": BIL was planning to work at least 7 more years since then he and his wife would both be old enough for Medi-Care because when he retires, if he wanted to keep the health ins. his employer provides, it would've cost about $2,000 a month. But the way the doctors are talking, he doesn't have anywhere near 7 more years. And his wife is 5 years too young to get survivors benefits from his Social Security. And forget about Medic-Aid (or any kind of welfare, I think): they own a small house. So we're hoping his retirement will be enough for her to live on; but it's so worrisome in addition to being heartbreaking.
Medicaid doesn't count your house or your cars, only your savings accounts, which can't exceed $2000. I moved my money when I had to get disability. It's all in my son's name.
 
Medicaid doesn't count your house or your cars, only your savings accounts, which can't exceed $2000. I moved my money when I had to get disability. It's all in my son's name.
Really, not houses? I could've sworn that they did; a SIL's mother was only able to get on Medic-Aid after letting the state put a lien on her house; they got the house after she had died. Which I guess BIL's wife could do if she chose; I'm just worried that BIL's retirement won't be enough for her to live on since he'll be so young when he dies. I guess she could sell the house, move into a tiny aptmt. and live off the proceeds for a while but the house is old and small and in an out-in-the-middle-of-nowhere place so might take forever to sell. And even if she does sell it; there's a 5-year lookback period here in Calif. before you can apply for Medic-Aid. I know someone who had her house foreclosed on--rather than selling it or giving it to a son/daughter--and there was a 4-year lookback period before she could apply.

Thank to all for your kind words, btw, everyone.
 
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Really, not houses? I could've sworn that they did; a SIL's mother was only able to get on Medic-Aid after letting the state put a lien on her house; they got the house after she had died. (Which I guess BIL's wife could do if she chose; I'm just worried that BIL's retirement won't be enough for her to live on since he'll be so young when he dies.)
It might vary from state to state. Do they have someone they can put on the deed? A son or daughter? I think that's how they could get around that problem. They could even transfer full ownership to a trusted person, someone they "want to leave the house to."
 
Really, not houses? I could've sworn that they did; a SIL's mother was only able to get on Medic-Aid after letting the state put a lien on her house; they got the house after she had died. (Which I guess BIL's wife could do if she chose; I'm just worried that BIL's retirement won't be enough for her to live on since he'll be so young when he dies.)
I'm just thinking about the medical costs, you know? Crap, they could lose their house in any case due to medical liens. If there's any way they can get on Medicaid, they should. Good luck to them, seriously.
 
It might vary from state to state. Do they have someone they can put on the deed? A son or daughter? I think that's how they could get around that problem. They could even transfer full ownership to a trusted person, someone they "want to leave the house to."
Yes, they do have a son they could put on the deed but then you're still looking at that 5-year look-back period before they (or she) could apply for Medi-Cal. It used to be a 2-1/2 year look-back period but got increased to 5 years in 2004 or 2005, I think.
 
Yes, they do have a son they could put on the deed but then you're still looking at that 5-year look-back period before they (or she) could apply for Medi-Cal. It used to be a 2-1/2 year look-back period but got increased to 5 years in 2004 or 2005, I think.
Ok, they need to look into how that would effect their medical costs. It might mean they have "share of cost" for a while, which could still save them tens of thousands before full benefits kick in. ...depending on his treatments and stuff.
 
Ripley, I am so sorry for the sad and difficult feelings, from the loss of your brother,
which are now combining with the additional sad and very difficult situation, you have now.
It's true that these things do not get easier as we get older.

We wish we could change something, to help you and your family. We can't, but we do understand and care.

It's very sad that now it's your husband's younger brother, and his younger wife too.

The laws do seem to keep changing, so there might be something that helps her.
In some States, they have actually improved, allowing more that might help, in similar situations.
In addition, she may find later on, that it's better for her, at some point, to move from that isolated location anyway.

Take care. You and your husband need to take care of yourselves too.
 
Thanks again, all, for the kind, kind words. BIL has surgery day-after-tomorrow so we'll find out more how far along it is, trying to keep my hopes up about it.
 


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