I drank off and on at disco clubs in my young adulthood.

When I did drink, I wanted to drink like it was Kool-aid because of the color and sweetness. I mostly was not able to sip and make a drink last a long time. So this meant that I had to have several drinks.
In my 40s, I started studying wines and what went with what food, dinners and desserts. I anticipated going to the grocery store. I would spend a lot of time in the wine section, studying and selecting. It was also fun because as a paper crafter, I loved looking at the different labels and thinking how I could use them in collage art. I liked the bottles colors and began collecting them. I displayed them on top of my kitchen cabinets. I also began to drink Mike's Hard Ciders, like apple, lemonade and cherry. These were for when I wasn't eating dinner and drinking wines.

But, I was single at that time and eating my dinners and drinking alone. Sometimes, I drank most of the bottle.
One day I perceived that there was something wrong. Why was I needing to have my brain chemistry altered in order to enjoy life? Why couldn't I find as much enjoyment in life with flavored waters, fruit juices and other non-alcoholic drinks? I could tell that I was becoming more involved with drinking alcohol.
In addition to experiencing the buzz, considerations like pretty labels and colorful glass were enticing me. I felt like it was some type of barely recognizable deception that was leading me into a deep hole, so I decided to stop. Just like that. One day I decided to stop.
I have never touched any fermented drinks since. While my decision was not based on religious conviction, it corresponded with my Christian development. There was nothing useful for me, or in my relationships with anyone else, in me drinking alcohol and getting buzzed.
I am grateful that I don't drink.

I experienced alcoholism in my father, some of my brothers, people I have met and worked with, my 2 husbands, one husband's mother and some men I have dated. To this day, I don't know how I escaped becoming an alcoholic.