Learning How To Live Life

Ok lets see if that's better. I think so. The site was being a little slow and unresponsive. Waiting for the masks I ordered to be delivered for my cpap. Thinking of going into the kitchen for some coffee here in a few. It is lightly snowing out at the moment.

I have a few groceries coming between 1 & 3 PM. I washed my cpap equipment last night. Will try again tonight with more humidity and see what happens. It's possible I have a deviated septum due to the last couple times I had Covid. This one side of my sinuses hasn't been right since. If it gets any worse I might have to look into getting surgery for it.

So far things have been pretty tame at the hospital as far as upper respiratory stuff goes. Had a few come in hacking but not a lot of admits for stuff like that. So we'll see how things go this winter.

One of the guys at work told me last night he enjoys talking to me. I laughed and said I don't know why cuz I'm not that interesting. I hope he's just enjoying talking and not trying to flirt. I will shut that crap down in a heartbeat. I told him last night I tend to keep people at arms length and that there's reasons for that. He said "understood."

I would hate to have to explain to HR how my coworker ended up with broken nose. :devilish:
 

well i guess the gnat in the tv lives here now. i tried using the hairdryer on the lowest heat setting with the cooling button pressed in to see if i could blow him out. didn't work. the on/off switch is very touchy so the tv restarted and then i had to go through a whole ordeal and reset the tv from the very beginning.

so i'm thoroughly frustrated now. i don't know how to pretend he's not in there. i have ocd so it's gonna drive me crazy. lol! these tv's are so touchy. what a pain in the neck.
 
Well, I went to bed early and managed to get a few hours of sleep with my cpap machine. I think I took it off around 7ish this morning. My nose was too stuffed up to sleep at that point. I slept til almost 11:30. The neighbor kid came home for lunch and he walks heavy through the apt and it makes a thudding noise.

He's a pretty big kid so I don't really fault him. I was partially awake anyway. The weather will be more normal for this week. In the 30s & 40s. The lows in the 20s & 30s.

I was too tired yesterday to do any gaming. I watched tv and chilled out all day. I got my dishes done and just basically ate from Burger King both meals. I just didn't feel up to doing anything.

When I was messing with the tv yesterday I noticed where I had it pushed up against the wall there was paint residue on the back of the tv now. Can't see it straight on when looking at the wall but when you look at an angle you can see where the tv was against the paint that is now on the tv. I thought that was odd.

The landlord gets a cheap paint not the washable kind. So if I have to wash the wall I hafta be careful. I guess the heat from the back of the tv must have caused the transfer of some of the paint to the tv.

The landlord has a Zillow account and I got one so I can pay the rent directly to him rather than writing a check and having it get lost in the mail. There's an auto pay thing but it's not selected. They email me a few days before it's due and I log in and ok it and then it's paid on the date we agreed upon. It goes into the bank account pending and then it shows up for him on the 4th of each month. It's been pretty handy.

Four days of work & then it will be my weekend off. I might play some Assassin's Creed this coming weekend.
 
i got a little sleep but still not enough. 🤷‍♀️ having some hot tea & contemplating the day ahead. it's been extremely busy at work. it's quite chilly today so i am under the comforter at the moment.

i have a little broccoli cheese soup and some mac & cheese leftover. i wonder if i dumped the soup over the mac if it would be good.... 🤔

we have a new floor tech at work that talks incessantly and has the table manners of a cave man. i am not comfortable around him & he gets on my nerves. yet he just jabbers away at me. ugh!

they are getting into old employee lockers of people who quit or got fired and never cleaned their lockers out. there was a comment made that if we didn't use the combination lock & had our own padlock we were supposed to give them a copy of the key. uh no. i'm not giving them a key to my locker so they can go through my stuff whenever they see fit. that would be like giving them a key to my house. not gonna happen.

wish i could stay home today.
 
I'm pretty upset with work right now. They said they'll honor vacations put in before today and then no more vacations indefinitely until we get more help hired.

Then they told us because one person in the entire organization abused their earned illness bank they are cutting our payout from 100% to 75%.

Which means if I get sick for a while I will only get 75% of my pay. They will take taxes & ins out still which would leave me with $766 every 2 wks til I return.

I don't see how that's legal to punish all of us because of one employee. But I'm guessing since it's a non profit they can get away with it.
 
Having my coffee and finally got a good night's sleep. Sinuses were doin better last night so I managed the cpap machine for about 2 hours. I don't know why but since they've put me on the theraputic dose of Roflumilast it seems I've been sleeping better without the cpap. Not sure why.

In my unit for some odd reason there's been some fuss about getting the top of the blanket warmers dusted. I don't know if something happened while I was on vacation or what. So now one of the gals that's been on light duty and doing inspections has to come in and check those to see if they've been dusted. If not she dusts them. I just dusted them a couple days ago so they were fine.

It's the other people that work down there. Nobody will dust or wash the bottoms of the beds or change out the empty paper products. I don't what the heck is wrong with these people. It's not hard to do your job. They don't even wash blood off the walls or anything. It's gross. I found a wheel on a recliner in one room in there that was caked in poop. But they still have their jobs. 🤬

I was actually able to get into some of the rooms last night and give them a good cleaning. A couple of them I only had time to pull trash and mop. I have to pay attention to how busy things are at different points of the night. And I have to listen for the ambulance radio. If I hear them telling the ambulance guys to put so and so in room 15 when they get here then if I happen to be in front of the room I just pull the trash and move on.

We've been using these really really cheap trash bags and they are breaking open now. I may hafta start double bagging them all. But nobody else does that. Then they leak everywhere. Last night they were working on the CT machine and threw a metal piece in the trash. It was inside of 4 bags and fell right out when I picked it up. LOL!

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*giggles* this is on fb now. thought it was hilarious.
no coffee this morning. i'll wait til i get to work and grab a soda. i can't wait to get today over with. yesterday my coworker friend was in his own area so i got my own carts and i was sore and wore out by the end of the night. tonight he's on floors so i will have him help me.

no big plans for the weekend. gaming for sure. i have some wash to tend to. might try to mop and vac. i need to.

i think i'm gonna back off of my fluid pills for a bit and see if my dry skin settles down some. my scalp is driving me bonkers. i can't get that to ease up at all.

slept 7 and a 1/2 hrs and 2 hrs of it was with the cpap. i wish the oxygen wasn't so expensive. i'd rather use that at night.

last night at work the steamtable they put the food in to serve out of in the cafeteria was not getting hot and they still put the food in there to serve it. i'm not sure i trust them with out dinner the way they handle things in there. i happened to see one of the bosses on her way out and mentioned it to her. hopefully they'll look into it. they have a new gal in there and i don't much care for her. she's careless.

have a babushka cat kind of day. lol!
 
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Good Saturday (checks time) afternoon to everyone. I haven't been awake for long. I'm on my first cup of coffee. Trying to decide when I am ready to get up and do something...anything. I need a shower, I have dishes to wash, laundry to do...energy for none of it. They need to make little dissolving Red Bull pellets for a persons coffee for that extra kick in the pants.

Arthritis in my hands is starting to really bug me this year. I don't like Bengay on my hands. Might have to mix it with some hand lotion. IDK. Had a decent enough sleep. Wish it could've been longer.

I don't feel like taking any meds today. Not in the mood to swallow pills today. Sometimes I just like to take break. I get so tired of it.

I have found myself thinking about the way my family treated me over the years and after mom passed. I hope they're pleased with themselves for hurting me and I hope they're happy with my absence from their lives. The hurt will likely never go away but at least I have some peace in my life. The stress of it all was only harming me. I can feel the difference and I would never want to go back to that. There's no reason to ever put myself in that position ever again.

I just don't understand how people can tell someone they love them and yet do such awful things to them and hurt them so deeply that they never wanna be around them ever again. How does someone lie to someone like that for years and years? And fake loving that person? And then expecting that person to just be ok with it? What kind of person/people do this kind of thing to someone else?

This is why I chose God. And I will never look back. God is the only one I truly trust with my life and my well being. Because I know he won't fail me. I know that he loves me. So when people think that I'm just alone all the time...I'm not really. I am with God all day long. He's just sitting here with me. 😌☺️

Not sure what I want to do for Christmas dinner by myself. Maybe I should get myself one of those big chicken pot pies and some kind of snacky like some Christmas cookies or something.

Well, I guess I'll go shower and then work on my dishes.
 
Domino's wants over $10 for 8 chicken nuggets. WTF?
According to the internet the surge of chicken prices is due to tight supply.
What the hell is going on in the US anymore?
 
MarciKS said:
Domino's wants over $10 for 8 chicken nuggets. WTF?
According to the internet the surge of chicken prices is due to tight supply.
What the hell is going on in the US anymore?
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Dominoes here don't do chicken nuggets but they do something called Chicken kickers.. same thing really....

similar price to your nuggets... £7.00 which is $9.35 USD

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hollydolly said:
Dominoes here don't do chicken nuggets but they do something called Chicken kickers.. same thing really....

similar price to your nuggets... £7.00 which is $9.35 USD

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It's terrible I tell ya. That explains the prices at KFC that one day. I just don't get why we're suddenly having supply and demand issues.
 
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In the quiet I examine the many scars I have aquired over the years.
Ones I didn't deserve that caused so many tears.
Ones I never even understood yet, I was forced to endure.
Ones that have left me in a world where I am forever unsure.
Ones that went so deep I never thought I would see the light of day.
Ones that have been with me forever and will never go away.
Whenever someone touches my heart I feel it in every scar.
I know that a new pain is never very far.

No matter what I do or say, it will always be this way.
The scars are here for life.
Cutting me like a knife.

I can no longer trust letting anyone in because that is how it will begin.

Each day I die a little more inside.
All I want to do is hide.

Hide from the pain that wraps around me like a chain.

Each scar is unique in the making.
Each one has left my heart breaking.
For every scar is part of my memoir.

~Anonymous
 
Incidentally Marci.. with regard to an alternative to Bengay to ease the pain of the OA in your hands , have you tried Voltarol ( Voltaren in the US) ..it's active ingredient is Diclofenic... the max strength 2.32%

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I use it, because I have anful OA in both hands and in my knees.... and it does help....
 

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