Silly Tilly
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New year, need to revamp my style. Looking for interesting sites to hang out and see how those my age deal with life every day.
A lot of my friends are already gone, few left but some already in senior housing, some because they need to be, some because they want to be. A few live in warm weather locations, some are married (I'm not) marrieds seem to hang with others who are married or couple up (I can understand).
Every few weeks I look through the obituaries and find another person I knew at one time suddenly gone, I almost don't want to look anymore to see who is left, or worse yet, find my name listed in the paper as "passed too soon".
I'm still working PT, as you know living in MN is not easy especially in the winter months. Have a few health issues, walking is not as easy as it once was, have some replacement parts, will use a walker on occasion if I'm in a crowd, want to get from point A to B faster.
My last year was good,, nothing exciting good or bad, but the other day I found myself thinking seriously that my time on this earth is getting much closer to the end, how do I want to spend my last days/years living. I've always been a good girl, did the right thing, worked long and hard, tried not to upset too many apple carts but of course being human have done just that, seems about every other year one of my daughters is not happy with me and will ignore me as much as possible.
There are times I think I spend too much time worrying about my children who all are in their mid 40's and for the most part doing okay. I as their mother would definitely make improvements and tweek their lives if allowed, thank goodness they do not allow.
My question as we end this year, how to move forward with gusto to keep living when all of sudden it dawns on you time is running out. There are some days I think "why bother, who will care about this or that I do or don't do when I'm gone", why don't I do something crazy, sell everything and try a different climate. Then I get practical, "Are you crazy woman, just run off into the sunset, when you fall on your face and you're laying in some hospital bed or nursing home 1000 miles away from every one you know - how will you feel then? Spend all my money when I have no idea of how much might be needed for future care and health repairs etc.
I'm one of those with no career but have worked since working permits were once a thing, never earned a "career" type salary, but have managed to save some money, still have a mortgage on a small condo, no fancy car, in fact I'm not too excited about driving much anymore, does anyone ever go to the speed limit any place any more?!
Would be interested in thoughts and ideas from others who may have come to a cross road as I feel I might be at. Do I continue on doing what I've always done, or do I live it up and jump out of my cage in to the big bad world and hope for the best. I would love to travel for the winter months but its not an option on my budget, so it's all or nothing. What propelled you forward, what holds you back.
Wish for every one that 2016 will be the year we all finally get it right!
Tilly
A lot of my friends are already gone, few left but some already in senior housing, some because they need to be, some because they want to be. A few live in warm weather locations, some are married (I'm not) marrieds seem to hang with others who are married or couple up (I can understand).
Every few weeks I look through the obituaries and find another person I knew at one time suddenly gone, I almost don't want to look anymore to see who is left, or worse yet, find my name listed in the paper as "passed too soon".
I'm still working PT, as you know living in MN is not easy especially in the winter months. Have a few health issues, walking is not as easy as it once was, have some replacement parts, will use a walker on occasion if I'm in a crowd, want to get from point A to B faster.
My last year was good,, nothing exciting good or bad, but the other day I found myself thinking seriously that my time on this earth is getting much closer to the end, how do I want to spend my last days/years living. I've always been a good girl, did the right thing, worked long and hard, tried not to upset too many apple carts but of course being human have done just that, seems about every other year one of my daughters is not happy with me and will ignore me as much as possible.
There are times I think I spend too much time worrying about my children who all are in their mid 40's and for the most part doing okay. I as their mother would definitely make improvements and tweek their lives if allowed, thank goodness they do not allow.
My question as we end this year, how to move forward with gusto to keep living when all of sudden it dawns on you time is running out. There are some days I think "why bother, who will care about this or that I do or don't do when I'm gone", why don't I do something crazy, sell everything and try a different climate. Then I get practical, "Are you crazy woman, just run off into the sunset, when you fall on your face and you're laying in some hospital bed or nursing home 1000 miles away from every one you know - how will you feel then? Spend all my money when I have no idea of how much might be needed for future care and health repairs etc.
I'm one of those with no career but have worked since working permits were once a thing, never earned a "career" type salary, but have managed to save some money, still have a mortgage on a small condo, no fancy car, in fact I'm not too excited about driving much anymore, does anyone ever go to the speed limit any place any more?!
Would be interested in thoughts and ideas from others who may have come to a cross road as I feel I might be at. Do I continue on doing what I've always done, or do I live it up and jump out of my cage in to the big bad world and hope for the best. I would love to travel for the winter months but its not an option on my budget, so it's all or nothing. What propelled you forward, what holds you back.
Wish for every one that 2016 will be the year we all finally get it right!
Tilly
