I totally get it, you had no choice but to hold yourself together. Now, that the situation has been fixed, you can fall apart. It is what I call "time for a good cry". You need to release all the stress, being trapped in the apartment, missing Sonny, worried about how you would get food for you and bunny boy. It had to be overwhelming. I have not had to face as difficult of a time as you have but I will admit I broke down the other day and down right sobbed for half an hour. Once I had done that, I felt so much better. Sometimes we just need a good cry, I think it is a girl thing. I am sure men do it too, but in a different way, chopping wood, doing yard work etc. The point is to get the frustration out so you can relax once the crisis has passed.