OMG No! I'm already the worst housekeeper I know, if I knew I wouldn't have to live with the debris after a certain date I'd never do any housework at all!
Don't need or want to know. Everyone who matters knows how I feel about them. I owe nothing but gratitude, and am owed nothing at all.
I've done pretty much all I was ever really determined to do.
"I've forgiven everything that forgiveness will allow..." and have made my peace with the past.
The future doesn't look all that exciting either so no regrets at missing out on anything.
The universe wont notice any tiny hole I leave in it.
I won't know that I'm dead so the timing has no relevance.
I'm 'rollin' with the flow' now and one day is much like another so which particular one is 'it' duzzen madder.
I don't know why people set so much stock in death.
Their own anyway. Only other people's really affect our futures don't they?
I made a decision fairly recently when I really did think my time was up. I weighed up calling an ambulance and doing the hospital thing and the hassles that would have accompanied it against just checking out quietly. I decided to take the punt.
I left the glass door open for the dog to get out. (She knows how to punch out the corner of the screen door.grrrrr.) Got as comfortable as I could manage, and waited it out. I made it, guess it wasn't the day, but the fact that the thought that it might be didn't faze me at all, was one of the most liberating moments of my life.
I eventually went to sleep and the last thing I remember thinking that night was "Sh*t, that bead order from eBay should be at the PO tomorrow and I won't even get to see them!"
(They were really nice ones btw.)