I have worn both hats--unwillingly. Neither were a natural fit, although being feral is. I know I am willing to die rather than relinquish my humanity. I have paid far too high a price for it.
I subscribe to - and have seen in my life work - the Sheep, Shepard and Wolf theory. Most people are Sheep and they will never be anything else.
Then there are the Wolves - the relentless, inhuman killers.
The Shepards are those who stand between the two, either voluntarily or by personality / upbringing / etc.
Once in a very long while one type of person can become another, either by training or by life event.
You say you would rather die than relinquish your humanity. Would you?
Really? Think about it ... life is the greatest gift we have ...
Sometimes being a victim is not a choice.
Ehhhhhh ... for the most part, in this life anyway, I think it is. It's a decision we all make. It's an attitude; we wear it like a coat wherever we go. It's in our posture and our voice. It's in our way of thinking. Those who have made the choice include soldiers, police, firemen ... the people we usually refer to as "heroes".
Because what is a hero except someone who refuses to become a victim? Who fights through impossible odds, no matter what the outcome?