I’m so sorry and embarrassed for my insecure post. Sometimes being so truthful and spontaneous doesn’t mix well.
Sometimes I get far too fragile and scare myself. After writing this opening post I was embarrassed to come back. Somehow I really underestimate people sincerity.
Lara is right that I’ve been taking care of my parents who haven’t been doing well. My mom had a stroke 5 weeks ago and they won’t let her out of hospital. During this time her physical and mental health has seriously deteriorated and some of the things said were horrifying. I do understand that much of it is due to brain injury.
My father had his license taken away last year after a stroke but still thinks he can drive. I drove him over 30 times to the hospital. In fact I’ve tried to do everything for them both over the last month in hopes that I can delay or change the inevitable. It’s difficult watching your parents go senile and lose the life they once had. In fact it’s horrible.
Surprisingly I didn’t expect to feel like this.
Skeletons have come flying out of the closets unexpectedly and trying to process all of this stuff is crazy difficult. I’ve been trying to keep two households running smoothly and efficiently and I am succeeding. That’s where I’ve been.
Wi fi isn’t great there but I haven’t been back at this site since I posted here except accidentally while clearing my cache and I don’t subscribe to any threads ever. I do belong to another site where I have posted a few short sentences. I sincerely was scared to come back.
Once I read all of these posts I couldn’t believe it.
This experience has really shown how twisted my perception can be at times , not only of myself, but of others and I’m so sorry for whimping out. It truly was a whiney thread but your responses were so gracious and heartfelt.
Thank you so much for being the kind of members you are. I’m most appreciative.
This was eye opening in the most beautiful way imaginable.