It is hopeful and a matter of prayer also that you will experience a totally smashing comfort (grand, wonderful, greater than you can imagine so far) the same way King David, who was a man after G+d's Own Heart, did. He noted "I looked to Him, and all my fears disappeared" (paraphrased) - and repeated many many times , especially in the Psalms "He is Everlasting, His Lovingkindnesses are new and fresh every morning, His Mercy Lasts Forever, He is our strength, our stronghold, our refuge perfectly and He is our strength and our healing now (on earth) and forever) and with many many more likewise testimonies .
On the other side, King Saul sought to bring up and contact the dead through a witch (the witch knew it was illegal, and was scared), and King Saul suffered greatly/ was punished severely , for his transgression in this.
Whole groups of believers in the first century , it is written, were daily continually FULL of Peace, Joy and Righteousness.... of course this was lost benefit for most people within a few centuries when babylon gained power over the political/religious 'official' assemblies.
Peace and Joy and Righteousness, by faith in Jesus, remains both a Promise unbreakable and a Reality for those who seek to approach G+d and believe that He is a Rewarder of those who seek Him.
Gifts each one , without limit, without measure, given by the Creator as He States in His Word , His Plan. (btw, He Hates Religion , but He Loves People!)