Jules
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First, try calling the hospital back and see if that appointment is still available. Tell them you were flustered.My DIL made an appt. for me with Parkinson center at my hospital. September. She warned me someone might call with a sooner appt. That just happened. I got so flustered I turned it down. Then I called son, who didn't know what I was talking about. He hadn't been clued in to me also being on list to be called in case of cancellation. So he told me just take it next time. If there is a next time.
I was on landline with friend and call from hosp. came in on cell. I don't know, I got so flustered, stammering, I didn't know what to do, or make decision. Son said "ok, you learned, forgive yourself," as I beat myself up for every wrong thing I do.
I'm a mess.
Second, give yourself a hug and reminder that things are overwhelming right now. Next time you’ll be prepared. You’re tough.