not need to excuse yourself, you're welcome to make any comments  whenever you wish..

 yes I do have those small weights.. I have to use them sitting down tho'.. because if I use them standing up, even those small weights put my back out.. not because I can't lift them of course, but because my back is so fragile....but I'm never sure if using them sitting down strengthens my core, which is really what you need along with the back muscles as a base for upper body strength..
I'm not weak..I've always had good strong shoulders...  now since I rarely swim any more  picking slightly heavy  things up,  is proving to be more and more of a challenge..