Hurt, Revenge, Oblivion
My younger friend and I have resorted for years to "It is what it is." She's 26 years younger, single mother of three, two divorces. Educationally, culturally, politically we're like the proverbial chalk and cheese, and yet for almost six years we have told each other that we're BFFs and love each other deeply, etc. Again, the usual cliches. But I'm married for 32 years, have two adult children (both of whom, thankfully, are a little younger than my friend). My wife and I run a business together - she's the money maker, I'm the back office. For more than a decade I've felt like more of an employee. We don't dislike each other, and to a point we still love each other. And there's that 32 years of shared, and fundamentally okay, history. But I'm not happy and dread however many more years I have on this earth. I don't want to divorce to be alone or to begin dating. I want to divorce to be with a woman who probably won't have me, for all the reasons you can guess.
Thanks for the comments. As for hurt - I'm doing that to myself. Revenge - no I don't want revenge on anyone. And oblivion - I'm the one seeking it for myself.
My younger friend and I have resorted for years to "It is what it is." She's 26 years younger, single mother of three, two divorces. Educationally, culturally, politically we're like the proverbial chalk and cheese, and yet for almost six years we have told each other that we're BFFs and love each other deeply, etc. Again, the usual cliches. But I'm married for 32 years, have two adult children (both of whom, thankfully, are a little younger than my friend). My wife and I run a business together - she's the money maker, I'm the back office. For more than a decade I've felt like more of an employee. We don't dislike each other, and to a point we still love each other. And there's that 32 years of shared, and fundamentally okay, history. But I'm not happy and dread however many more years I have on this earth. I don't want to divorce to be alone or to begin dating. I want to divorce to be with a woman who probably won't have me, for all the reasons you can guess.
Thanks for the comments. As for hurt - I'm doing that to myself. Revenge - no I don't want revenge on anyone. And oblivion - I'm the one seeking it for myself.
Dear despair99,
Try to remember this :
Nobody can hurt you without your permission. ~ Mahatma Gandhi. :wave: