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Murrmurr said:
I'll look into that and I'll ask my doctor when I see her next month. The ophthalmologist said don't use eyedrops that contain a preservative, but the ones my PCP prescribed do contain a preservative. I'll ask her if she can Rx one that doesn't....but maybe my insurance isn't approving that kind, idk.

Thanks, Pinky
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That was excellent news about your brain results, in the previous posts, Frank.:)

About your eyes, I would not wait another month, while continuing to use one with the preservatives which are very well known to irritate sore eyes!

Either ask the ophthalmologist to prescribe something better for you,
or request that they inform your PCP, of the better options for you, and that are ether otc or are covered.

Perhaps you don't need the irritating script, and might be better off with non-preservative otc drops, such as SootheXP or one of the countless others. It's safe to use any of those, more than 4 times a day, at least until your eyes improve, and then again whenever they flare up.

And you might try cool wet compresses, as they sometimes help better for some people than the warm. And it would not cause any harm to try them. Not very cold, just cool.
 

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A promontory on the pacific coast called Bodega Head is where my life took a bad turn. Me and a dive-buddy just finished checking out this deep freshwater pond situated just inland from Campbell Cove. I’m not sure that pond has an official name but people in the area call it The Hole in the Head. Some guys working there thought we were going to dive it and asked if we had a permit, which we didn’t but that wasn’t the plan anyway, so we crossed the peninsula over to the west shore of Bodega Head and that’s where it happened. I stepped out onto a sturdy rocky shelf to find the best way down to the shoreline and saw it would be a tricky hike so I put on my wetsuit bc it was better than carrying it. Then I stepped back out even farther just to check again which was really stupid bc there was s strong gusty wind up there, and that was literally my downfall.

I might have posted about this somewhere already but this is a diary, so not only might I repeat myself sometimes, sometimes I won’t use spell check and the grammar and punctuation software. But I’m sure nobody feels pressured to read diaries so, yeah, sometimes I won’t bother with that stuff.

So anyway, I had a few non-life-threatening spine fractures, and bone shards got stuck in some lumbar and thoracic nerve roots, and my spine shifted out of alignment a few degrees here and there. Moreover, my liver was busted up a bit and some of the contents of my stomach splashed out onto the rock I landed on. Not a good scene. I had surgery and that fixed me up adequately and I healed fast and went back to work in less than 2 months but I had to take it easy for another month. But years along, when I started having severe back pain, my new doctor saw bone shards still in there, along with the misalignment being increased by a significant degree but I didn’t have the second surgery until about 5 years go when it was ok (and kind of imperative) for me to retire.
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Wow! Thank God you made it through all of that! How are you now? Do you live in pain? So sorry.
 
Aprilbday12 said:
Wow! Thank God you made it through all of that! How are you now? Do you live in pain? So sorry.
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I do. And I've had to be in a wheelchair twice, but I worked really, really hard, and it paid off. Lately, though, the pain has gotten pretty bad. I'll be seeing my back surgeon next week. If he can fix it, swell, if not, I'll see my PCP about changing or increasing my pain meds.
 

Kaila said:
That was excellent news about your brain results, in the previous posts, Frank.:)

About your eyes, I would not wait another month, while continuing to use one with the preservatives which are very well known to irritate sore eyes!

Either ask the ophthalmologist to prescribe something better for you,
or request that they inform your PCP, of the better options for you, and that are ether otc or are covered.

Perhaps you don't need the irritating script, and might be better off with non-preservative otc drops, such as SootheXP or one of the countless others. It's safe to use any of those, more than 4 times a day, at least until your eyes improve, and then again whenever they flare up.

And you might try cool wet compresses, as they sometimes help better for some people than the warm. And it would not cause any harm to try them. Not very cold, just cool.
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I wish I knew what the deal is with my eyeball. I saw an optometrist, an ophthalmologist, and an ENT specialist, and after an MRI and a 3D scan, none of them could find anything wrong. My eye burns, still, and it's still a bit sensitive to touch but it's not as bad as it was...like, it's gone from super, super ouchy to just really annoying, so there's obviously something wrong.

I'll take your advice and ask the ophthalmologist to write the next prescription. And I'll also tell my PCP to read the ophthalmologist's notes. Sometimes doctors forget to do that.
 
Welp, apparently I won't be seeing Paxton this weekend, either. He's not going to Jackie's house, so she can't, in turn, bring him here.

In a way, I wish Jackie didn't tell me that Tara said it's ok for him to come over. I've been sort of obsessing about it ever since, and it's put me in a weird mood. Makes me kind of hard to live with, if you ask Michelle. But it's awesome she did tell me, because now I'm certain Tara won't report me to CPS again. She's reported me as intentionally interfering in her relationship with Paxton, a kidnapping risk, and a "dangerous contact" because she suspected I was teaching Paxton to reject her. None of that is true, of course (well, maybe except for the kidnapping part), but the caseworker took her at her word, no questions asked. So I wasn't allowed at the visitors center, the foster home, Jackie's house, or any place where the kids were. And I'm still not allowed at the shelter home where Tara and the kids live now.

Anyway, I got Paxton's bed, his little couch, and one of the cribs out of our closet, and pulled the folding cot out from under our bed. I didn't set any of them up yet; they're all just leaning against a wall in our room, bugging the crap out of me. Plus all Pax's toys and books and puzzles are back on the shelves. And it's not easy looking at this stuff all day every day. So yeah, I've been a bit moody.

And it's not about missing him. I don't look at this stuff and just miss him, I stare at it and all I can think about is all the crap they put him through, and the crap they're still putting him through. I see the kid I handed over, the kid I raised; this healthy, happy, sweet, socially acceptable toddler that I handed over to his mother, and she immediately effed him up. And then CPS just endlessly pummeled him with more crap. So that very happy, sane toddler is now a messed up preschooler who desperately needs to get in touch with his past. That's how I see it, anyway, and that can't happen soon enough. That's why it's hard looking at all this stuff just sitting here - like an old photo album just waiting for him show up and go through it and remember, and maybe reconnect to happier times.

Idk, I just feel like it would fill his soul or whatever with missing pieces. Health supplements for his psyche. Kind of like what spinach is to Popeye, you know?
 
I text (texted?) Jackie asking for clarification.

Jackie is around 50, and we've known each other for over 20 years. Her mother and my mother were next-door neighbors. Anyway, she's a well-meaning person, and she's witty too, but she's a total ditz. A scatterbrain, easily distracted, and a rambling converser. But I needed to pin her down on what's up with this possible overnight visit, so I asked her to explain in detail as clearly as possible.

So, Tara and Paxton and the twins live in this shelter home for homeless/displaced moms with kids. Well, because there's a lot of homeless moms with kids, and not enough rooms, the house administrators don't like you to just come and go as you please, especially for overnight. Sometimes moms and their kids go and don't come back, and their room sits empty, going to waste. So anyway, you have to get a pass; either a day-pass or an overnight-pass. Apparently, Tara used up all her overnight passes, or something.

But she finally got an apartment, and her and the kids will move into it this week. After that, Jackie is pretty sure she'll be "babysitting" about every weekend. I'm gonna ask if Tara wants Paxton's bed and his bike and toys and shelves. I'm pretty sure she's starting from scratch...again.
 
Murrmurr said:
I text (texted?) Jackie asking for clarification.

Jackie is around 50, and we've known each other for over 20 years. Her mother and my mother were next-door neighbors. Anyway, she's a well-meaning person, and she's witty too, but she's a total ditz. A scatterbrain, easily distracted, and a rambling converser. But I needed to pin her down on what's up with this possible overnight visit, so I asked her to explain in detail as clearly as possible.

So, Tara and Paxton and the twins live in this shelter home for homeless/displaced moms with kids. Well, because there's a lot of homeless moms with kids, and not enough rooms, the house administrators don't like you to just come and go as you please, especially for overnight. Sometimes moms and their kids go and don't come back, and their room sits empty, going to waste. So anyway, you have to get a pass; either a day-pass or an overnight-pass. Apparently, Tara used up all her overnight passes, or something.

But she finally got an apartment, and her and the kids will move into it this week. After that, Jackie is pretty sure she'll be "babysitting" about every weekend. I'm gonna ask if Tara wants Paxton's bed and his bike and toys and shelves. I'm pretty sure she's starting from scratch...again.
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@Murrmurr
My error, referring to Jackie as Paxton's grandmother.
It's good that the kids will be in an apartment. Let's hope Tara stays on the straight and narrow.
 
hollydolly said:
well I just scrolled back and read the last few posts.. I didn't see where you said anything wrong. Perhaps people got mixed up between Tara and Jackie when you said Tara was moving into an apartment with the kids.. perhaps they thought Tara was the grandma
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That could be it. But the whole thing gets confusing, plus I really have to work to keep my posts organized. I'm not very good at writing...at organizing it, anyway.
 
I agree that it's fine writing and I've been following both stories closely; Paxton's because I'm wanting his visit with Frank so, so much, and the eye thing because I'm having exactly the same problem. I've been doing the drops and the heat mask and some sort of spray to disinfect around the eyes for about six weeks now and had no improvement at all. I have to go to bed most nights around 8 because that eye is just done by then.
 
Della said:
I agree that it's fine writing and I've been following both stories closely; Paxton's because I'm wanting his visit with Frank so, so much, and the eye thing because I'm having exactly the same problem. I've been doing the drops and the heat mask and some sort of spray to disinfect around the eyes for about six weeks now and had no improvement at all. I have to go to bed most nights around 8 because that eye is just done by then.
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My eye is doing quite a bit better. It's still slightly burny-stingy, but nothing at all compared to when it first started. There was definitely something wrong. None of the exams or images caught it, but something was going on, and still is a little bit.

I still use the artificial tears drops when I need to, but I'm not convinced that's the actual problem.

I'm sad for you, Della. Are you also using an eye ointment?
 
Pinky said:
@Murrmurr
Sorry for causing confusion. Because Jackie is so young, I thought she wasn't Paxton's grandmother, but Tara's older friend.

Duh! Count this is a huge "senior moment" :oops:
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Maybe you didn't realize it, but Paxton is Jackie's first grandchild and he's only 4. He just turned 4 last month. So she was about 46 when he was born. I was around 10 years younger than that when I first became a grampa.
 

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