Nothing To Look Forward To

That is my kind of delicate! Apparently, there is a company making motorcycles specifically designed for female body. I so want one! Road trip!
 

I'm with you! Hey, I was thinking of selling my truck, but maybe I can trade it for a motorcycle, or at least a down-payment!! LOL!!
 
*picking up the pieces of his poor thread*

They took my premise, and they threw it over there ... and they took my responses and they threw them over there ...

Cowardly Lion: That's you, all over!
 
I just found this thread, so I'm still working off the original theme of the tapestry and feeling shunted from the central scene to the sidelines ...

It reminded me of a painting by Brueghel (I think he's the one). He painted "peasant scenes" and when I took art history/appreciation I learned about all the detail he put into his paintings. There will be a huge scene with a lot of people in it doing a lot of things, but every single person is doing something that has a theme of its own that also adds to the big picture. It's like you can take a corner of one of his paintings and it's like a smaller painting in itself. So even in the corners, probably even on the sidelines, the people are actively doing something, even if you don't notice it unless you look for it.

I'm glad I found this thread tonight, because today I was just thinking that I may never see many of my best friends again. I moved from one city to another because there was a vacancy in this apartment building and none in the building where I used to live. I've been here more than 3 years now, and I've only seen 2 people from my former home, and not a single one of my best friends from there. They can't just get in the car and drive 100-plus miles for a weekend visit, plus they have other things to do on their weekends.

I've just lost my best friend here (he didn't die, just left). And SifuPhil's words about relationships really hit home too.

But if a peasant in a Brueghel painting can stay active, I guess I can try to, too? Anyway, I've kind of given up on trying to live near friends and just want to try to live near the ocean, because I love it and it's always going to be there.
 
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Guitarist said:
I just found this thread, so I'm still working off the original theme of the tapestry and feeling shunted from the central scene to the sidelines ...
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Ahh ... another edge-holder. Welcome!
It reminded me of a painting by Brueghal (I think he's the one). He painted "peasant scenes" and when I took art history/appreciation I learned about all the detail he put into his paintings. There will be a huge scene with a lot of people in it doing a lot of things, but every single person is doing something that has a theme of its own that also adds to the big picture. It's like you can take a corner of one of his paintings and it's like a smaller painting in itself. So even in the corners, probably even on the sidelines, the people are actively doing something, even if you don't notice it unless you look for it.
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I'm glad I found this thread tonight, because today I was just thinking that I may never see many of my best friends again. I moved from one city to another because there was a vacancy in this apartment building and none in the building where I used to live. I've been here more than 3 years now, and I've only seen 2 people from my former home, and not a single one of my best friends from there. They can't just get in the car and drive 100-plus miles for a weekend visit, plus they have other things to do on their weekends.

I've just lost my best friend here (he didn't die, just left). And SifuPhil's words about relationships really hit home too.
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I'm sorry my post reminded you of your loneliness.

But if a peasant in a Brueghel painting can stay active, I guess I can try to, too? Anyway, I've kind of given up on trying to live near friends and just want to try to live near the ocean, because I love it and it's always going to be there.
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I like that - a lot. Especially the bit about the ocean. I've always felt a pull toward the ocean but never knew why. Thank you for that bit of wisdom.
 
Guitarist said:
I just found this thread, so I'm still working off the original theme of the tapestry and feeling shunted from the central scene to the sidelines ...

It reminded me of a painting by Brueghal (I think he's the one). He painted "peasant scenes" and when I took art history/appreciation I learned about all the detail he put into his paintings. There will be a huge scene with a lot of people in it doing a lot of things, but every single person is doing something that has a theme of its own that also adds to the big picture. It's like you can take a corner of one of his paintings and it's like a smaller painting in itself. So even in the corners, probably even on the sidelines, the people are actively doing something, even if you don't notice it unless you look for it.

I'm glad I found this thread tonight, because today I was just thinking that I may never see many of my best friends again. I moved from one city to another because there was a vacancy in this apartment building and none in the building where I used to live. I've been here more than 3 years now, and I've only seen 2 people from my former home, and not a single one of my best friends from there. They can't just get in the car and drive 100-plus miles for a weekend visit, plus they have other things to do on their weekends.

I've just lost my best friend here (he didn't die, just left). And SifuPhil's words about relationships really hit home too.

But if a peasant in a Brueghel painting can stay active, I guess I can try to, too? Anyway, I've kind of given up on trying to live near friends and just want to try to live near the ocean, because I love it and it's always going to be there.
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I enjoyed your post, Guitarist. I think as our lives progress there is that aspect of loss. The painting you mention does represent a wide spectrum of people and activity. There is "the big picture" but also lots of smaller pictures as you mentioned. I am retired and not working anymore ..but my life is now filled with other activity I have chosen..and it certainly matters to me. I have a more quiet life because I need and crave it.

i like your last sentence a lot..you decided to have your little piece of the world by something that doesn't change and gives you comfort...perfect :)
 
I'm feeling this way myself lately. Wondering what the future holds. It seems just a few years ago, I had hopes about the future but they seem to be gone. I'm wondering more about how the following years will just play out. I'm still working full time but it's not easy. I have my cats and they of coarse matter.

It's strange how outlook on life changes so quickly.
 
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Denise1952 said:
I agree with this. For example, I was just down, for the last 3-4 days, I just went with it, because I can. I stayed home, rode it out, took naps, ate too much. It's passing on it's own. I can't force myself to just get up and do something. Maybe I'm supposed to kick back, who knows:)
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Once you have fallen into the great pit of despair, you may have to grasp at every tiny bit of life: The wandering of an ant; the sight of a colorful bird; the formation of clouds; the sermons and speeches of well-meaning persons.
Don't let your memories escape into the unknown, hang on to them with pictures and words, so that your children and grandchildren will be able to cherish your memory.
 
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I agree with this. For example, I was just down, for the last 3-4 days, I just went with it, because I can. I stayed home, rode it out, took naps, ate too much. It's passing on it's own. I can't force myself to just get up and do something. Maybe I'm supposed to kick back, who knows:)
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Don't worry about that you are suppose to do and enjoy what you can do. :cool:
 
SifuPhil said:
A quote from Butterfly in another thread got me to thinking ...



I get this. In fact, I get it so strongly that I've had this feeling for the last 15 years or so.

For me, part of it is physical. I'm no longer 20 and can't do all the things I used to. Through nobody's fault but my own I've recently been whacked with a few medical problems, which once again I'm not used to, and it has caused me to start slipping off the bright, clean middle of that tapestry.

My choice to cut myself off from the world - another slip toward the edge.

Convincing myself that my days of close relationships are over - hanging onto the fringe, scrabbling, to keep from falling into that dark, wood-floored abyss.

And finally the 2-ton elephant giving me what seems to be the final push - that I have nothing to look forward to. I've had my education, my career, wrote my books, did my partying, made love under a full moon on the beach, got married, had kids, divorced, SCUBA dived, skydived ... I've lived my life, lived longer than my family. I've laughed and I've cried.

What's left? What can I look forward to? Old age? Sitting in a rocking chair or, worse, a hospital, somewhere? What's that? Living off a measly SS hand-out from the government that won't even pay for the cat food?

Have any of you ever had these dark thoughts?
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Perhaps volunteering would help to bring meaning back to your life.
 
I've been finding myself short tempered, some mornings you just don't want to get up. I know what it is...The search for work is making me nutso. I mean even a stupid job until I can get something meaningful. Just have to keep paws crossed somebody says yes eventually. But it's been almost six months...never took this long before.
 

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